I talked to Amber last night and I woke her up, I felt kinda bad. We didn't talk about anything but I realized she wants to do something I don't like. We were talking about something and she says, "I can't do it anymore" meaning smoke pot. She really wants to continue doing it and it saddens me because its such an ugly habit and it changes people. ( Read more... )

I don't think I have any chance with the girl I love so much. I can't believed I fucked up my perfection (being with her). I hate myself ( Read more... )

There's this big CS drama right now and its total BS. Apparently, 15 of my fellow Xx clan mates are banned from the server that we almost all started at, Maelstrom. Though, we think that Maelstrom was dead after the (SOB) break-up. After the (SOB) founder left the |SOB| because things weren't going as they expected they should have changed ( Read more... )

I had another dream about her this morning. It was about her an greg and I guess her cheating on me before she said lets see other people. Something about making out 2 times and a machine ( Read more... )

Wow, my science and english class kick ass.

Too bad my political science class fucking blows.

Better at some times, but at times like evening and night I just feel terrible. I had so many daydreams about her.

I miss Amber. I wish I could express a different feeling but sorrow and pity is all I seem to understand right now. I feel like I'm going to puke ( Read more... )

School sucks, work sucks, life sucks. I want to sit on the couch and rot.

maybe she's right, maybe I don't know her ( Read more... )

I hate these gay colors.