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Drinking alone. Not so bad. I mean, I'm sure it's not a good thing to do when you're depressed, but sometimes it's good to get out by yourself. Not having anyone badgering you.
I am currently doing this....a person that i haven't seen in a long time just sat next to me. I don't think she notices me, but i am shamelessly hiding my face with my hair ( Read more... )

I keep having these dreams with Justin. I am trying to win him back or make him see what he's done to me. I never succeed. I wish I'd stop having them. I wake up sad or in the hope that we are at least still talking an in each others lives. I keep wondering what he's doing throughout the day. The life him and Karli live, how happy he is, how she ( Read more... )

He asked me if I wanted to see the baby announcement he made today. I told him no. How long can I keep doing this? I keep waiting for him to respond to me. I'm not his "main girl" anymore. He's married, Sara..He is starting a family and loving it. He does things with her. They are happy together. You need to stop hoping that things fall through, ( Read more... )

We talked for a little bit today. Asked what presents I got and I asked the same. He said him and Karli only spent $25 on each other because they're planning on going to Disneyland on January 2nd. A week from now. In the beginning of our relationship we talked about traveling together. It's just funny when someone says they can't do things with you ( Read more... )

He's married. They did it last friday. He told me she asked him and they both thought it was the right decision to make. I agree. He's 30, she 37. They're having a baby. It's only been 3months. 3 months. I am depressed. I am angry. I am happy for him. I am feeling myself move on, but at the same time I feel like I am nothing. I did put a lot of ( Read more... )

I started talking to Justin again today. I couldn't get him out of my mind these past couple of days and I needed to talk to him. I'm addicted to him. The conversation was okay. Yes, he brought up men and couldn't stop asking about sex, but not unbearable..Then he started talking about learning how to play the piano. That was the trigger. I know ( Read more... )

I ended up texting Justin yesterday. I hate that I keep going back on my word with him. I make these empty threats of contacting Karli, or that I'll never talk to him again, but I keep going back. I don't know why I need to talk to him? Yes, I miss him as my friend. He was there for me during hard times and helped...or was he just a distraction? I ( Read more... )