useless

[saritaville]

i hate this feeling i know that i should be happy... this is what every girl dreams about right? well i guess not me. i hate sitting here all alone all day n feeling like a loser. i feel like i've lost all my purpose. im just here. i dont do anything im not helping anyone (icluding myself). i feel so useless here. i dont work, im not in school. i

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sister don't cry no more

[willywonkaspoop]

sarah, it really sucks that you feel that way and if there was any kind of suggestion to give you you know i would offer some help, but i really don't understand and im sure you don't either about how you can be upset and no know why. if andrew is as good as you say he is then it should come as a suprise (to me) that he cannot tell you are depressed and wanna talk to you or comfort you. to tell you the truth though, i think that deep down you know why you have at least 50% of your depression. as for the other half, well... ? mabye you should ask yourself aand andrew a few more qwestions:
Am i trying to hard?
Should I?
Does he really care?
If he doesnt try to make me happy, then why should I Make him?

throw those out if you want to, but for once i am coming to you seriously.
i know first hand how hard it is to truly be happy, as i am not quite there yet, but hopefully we will both find happiness in some way.
by the way, doesnt he read this journal? dizzamn.

Re: sister don't cry no more

[saritaville]

thanks mcgyver! im not really feeling too much better right now but it means alot that u actually read this shit n give a damn :) thanks dude, you're awesome

and no he dont read it lol

Sarah Bell

[anonymous]

Sarah

Re: Sarah Bell

[saritaville]

thanks girl :) im actually doing a whole lot better. idk i guess i just started gettin sick n so i couldnt really do much around the place so i got kinda bleh. u kno how it is. but im doin great now :) and still totally freakin miss you too!!! :) i'll be makin a trip home b4 a start school here in august i just gotta make time to do it. but gimmi a call sometime i dont have a whole lot goin on til like thursday so :) i love u girl!

[anonymous]

you know your what keeps me goin and i would do anything for you i jus sometimes get caught up in doin so much shit at once i dont see the whole pic jus smack me round and let me know how you feel i will help in any way possible baby you know i will. jus between work andrew and all this movin stuff we both been really stressed i kno it but were gonna be ok i promise soon as everything settles down we will start living the life we both agreed on :) i love you baby
and p.s. i do read this too