well im back in memphis and have left knoxville behind for the summer. it hit me harder today than it had yet but i miss andrew so much. when i was driving off the other day it took everything in me not to burst into tears. i really do miss having him around there was just a happiness there that i had never felt. sometimes i think that im being ( Read more... )

it's hard to explain how i feel right now. i can't believe that in a little over a week i will be leaving knoxville. there is so much that i am going to miss but idk. i guess that a summer away from here will help me grow... or something ( Read more... )

if u can tell me what this is from u win the prize ( Read more... )

ok so i know i've been posting alot the past 2 days but there has just been alot in my head. i promise that this is the last one for awhile ( Read more... )

it's nights like this that i look at the scars and miss that feeling. the blade across my skin once more and i dont even feel a thing. i see the drops hit the ground, what beautiful crimson red, but still i feel nothing. i wish that it hurt. just a little. something to take my mind off the bigger, deeper pain ( Read more... )

I can remember the very first time I cried ( Read more... )

every moment i will never forget, every smile, every word. i will remember every joke, every time u said u loved me. i wish that i could go back but i know better. i know things can never be the same. i know that thins have changed far too much. i just wish i were better ( Read more... )

i cant believe it has been so long since i've seen your face. it seems like only yesterday we were on the bus screamin blink songs and bein stupid. so much has changed in 2 yrs.

my mind keeps swimming over all these thoughts i can seem to stop it long enough to even get one out... im lost

i sit here thinking once again and i wish u knew. i wish u could see this. i wish that you had some clue about what's in my head, what you've done to me ( Read more... )

i know that i'm a mess. i am. i'm so sorry that im so hard to love but please try. i knwo that i'm not perfect, i'm nowhere near it, and never ever will be. i want to make things better. for once i want to be the good guy that makes life better and not worse. i dont know where i can go from here. im not sure if i will be able to find a way but im