so anyone please answer this: what makes you happy? i cant answer this because i dont know what makes me happy. so is that normal? i go through depressions weekly it is kinda a mellow mood of sadness and smiles but not truly happy. too muchworrying about what other people think and too much thinking about what the fuck i am gonna do with my fucking ( Read more... )

i turn 18 saturday and am sooooo excited!!1!

yeah i havent posted in awhile although i have been keeping up with everyone else's hectic life. It seems that everyone is kinda in chaos mode and this goes for myself as well. i am so busy with school and homework and college shit and it is kinda getting to me. i actually go to bed early now because i get SOOO tired. the weather sucks right now ( Read more... )

when is life not going to be so hellish? every moment of every day seems to be like i am in hell. i am starting to think that earth is just a punishment...i mean it could very well be - your heart gets broken tons and that is never good...and plus i mean you pretty much have to work your whole life unless you are lucky which is like hardly anyone. ( Read more... )

i really wish that i had something really interesting to write that all of you would want to comment on but guess what...that's not gonna happen b/c my life right now is pretty boring. i am going to BG this weekend to visit all my friends which should be pretty cool and i am excited for that. besides that it is school and work same old same old ( Read more... )

alrite so i am a senior in high school as you all know ...but i dont think it is fun...i mean senior year is supposed to be YOUR year ya know? and it doesnt seem like it is mine at all...in fact it sucks. i spend most of my weekends in lakewood and i hang out with a few people from river but then i bring those people to lakewood and they seem to ( Read more... )

yeah so it is getting better day by day but now i am starting to have homework and i am getting back into the swing of work with football season starting this weekend. it was my first day back at work since my finger got fucked up and it was nice i suppose. it feels like i havent worked in forever and we hired like 4 new people since about 2 weeks ( Read more... )

wow highscool is SOOOO different now that i am a senior - it is amazinf in its own sense but i almost feel as if i do not belong. i feel like i should be going off to college with everyone else and i feel kinda alone at the moment. i got my friend jen and that is all right now. i mean yeah i talk and hang out with people but she is the only one ( Read more... )

so i suppose i owe people an update about what went down with all that shit. everything is okay but i still lost the trust that i had between me and my boy even though he wasnt even mine, but we arent even anything at all anymore, so it dont matter. i am trying to figure out if i got played or if i played him. i really did like him but then again ( Read more... )

alrite so i had a great summmer, i met a boy i had great friends...cheers for beers. staying up all nite and going to work hungover as fuck. i like those happy times. i wish that there would never be a time when i felt some type of remorse about what i have done this summer but i guess it has come to that point. i had a fun summer in the beginning ( Read more... )