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So tonight's the night. First time in 7 months we'll see each other. Maybe. I have so much hostility towards him and he doesnt know. I hate him and love him at the same time. (LUV him not L-o-v-e him) He probably doesnt even want to sleep with me. I dont want him touching me, but I do. But I hate him. He wont even know it's sweetest day anyway. It' ( Read more... )

I grew up believing that if I chose right, Id meet the right guy. If I didnt date impetuously, if I dated only so called good boys who did the proper courtship thing, if I never hooked up or did stupid things with boys... Id be able to find a good guy who could see me for who I am and love me despite it all ( Read more... )

I love where my bed is in my room. There are 3 windows in the corner, and last night you can see the moonlight beaming down on me through the blinds. It was very comforting to sleep to.

It's good to be truly anonymous again. Let's see if it works.