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Bored.

My up and downs of life are finally Plateu-Ish. guess that isn't a word. But anyway, I can't describe the mess I made, at least not in a public journal. l hate the fact I have to bee so censored. But That's my domestic life now. Bringing a worthy example of the cliche "cant live with it, can't live w/o it. creepy thing is I keep seeing People that ( Read more... )

I’m paranoid.

I just watch SAW IV and after that I noticed my water from this morning

A. Didn’t have a little clear plastic mouth cover on the top.

B. Was really easy to unscrew the top off.

So if I die by tomorrow I just want to say-

I miss/love you, Marissa and Matt.

I’m sorry I’ve neglected you.

I will now continue my paranoia of ( Read more... )

Yes I am a drug addicted and drunk so I am admitting it.

I hate boys- or should I say girls.  For me they are one the same. Every time I am around this crowd I feel the need to grow balls or become a lesbian.  I say around this crowd because I don't have time to explain.

But things are okay.  Scott told my parents we are engaged which makes me super happy. So like I said not enough time for more.

Love ( Read more... )

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing ( Read more... )

You said "I got something to say"
Then you got that look in your eye
"There is something you've got to know"
You said it as you started to cry
"I've been down the wrong road tonight
And I swear I'll never go there again"
Ive seen this face once before
And I don't think I can do this again

Theres something I cant see
There's something different in the way ( Read more... )

I have no identity.

Nothing that makes me special, or makes me who I am.

My life has no point.

No existance.

But getting back myself would involve cutting other people out of my life.

Snip. Snip.

I dunno how long I can be like this before everything just falls apart.

I need a me.

I'm just here.

Taking up space.

I have nothing.

Am no one.

This ( Read more... )

It's funny how friends can cancel out any anger you have.  Once your relaxed, you find more and more reasons why you shouldn't have been mad in the first place.  Anger turns to frustration and understanding at the same time.

Does it make sense if can feel frustrated and understanding at the same time?  I guess it's better said as frustration at a ( Read more... )

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time you come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

Hand over my heart I swear
I've tried everything I could within all my power
Two weeks and one hour I slaved
And now I've got nothing to show
Oh if only you'd grow taller than a brick wall
From now ( Read more... )