I've really screwed up tonight. I left without so much as a goodbye to someone. And it really hurt him I'm sure. I can't believe I did that. I'm hurting, crying and cutting. I told him I wouldn't but I messed up so badly ( Read more... )

The pain is so big you feel nothing at all. - Working Class Hero - John Lennon covered by Marilyn Manson When you can't really function you'll so full of fear - Working Class Hero ( Read more... )

Medicated and afraid to socialize to the new psych ward.

Arms itch from the blue stitches that line her pale

Arms, one by one she counts the cuts, too many to remember

Some were deep to see sinewy muscle and fatty tissue

Broke her record of 75 stitches three weeks ago

Nights ago. Rip the blue watch the blood pool

To the surface mixing with ( Read more... )

To fall away

From grace, leave

Love bleeding in

My eyes, crying

Life was like black

And white push me

Down with your blades

Cut through me

With your fingers

Pulled apart thighs

Like a ripped map

Directing us to an

Unknown direction

Heaven or hell,

I’m broken and stranded

In a place desolate,

Sand pelts into my

Skin robbed raw

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I haven't posted here in a long time. still haven't eaten and its day 11 I believe, I think I've had a few crackers. I just can't bring myself to eat. Because I know if I do, I'll purge. I have constant headache, constant stomach pains. I don't even know if anyone will read this. But oh well. Doesn't matter, I need to write it out ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in so long. I got to the point of..not caring. Nothing has changed. And I don't think it will ( Read more... )

no matter how many showers or baths or how much i scrub my skin cells off, i can't get him off of me. no matter if i stay awake for days, i still see him, even in my dreams i feel him. i can't go out at night anymore ( Read more... )

I was raped on Tuesday night. I don't know how did it, he had a knife, it was dull that much I know and a baseball cap. I'm scared to leave my house unless I go next door to use their computer, mine got pawned for money. I'm suppose to talk more with the police I'm more terrified of that than anything else now. I'm petrified of the police, always ( Read more... )

I tried to end my life this weekend but it didn't work out. Right now, I'm too exhausted to explain.

Silver dust scattered about the broken mirror. Line by line white powder cakes your flesh. Glass shards embedded in your knees. Crawl to me my feline princess. A caged soul rattles against the metal bars. Weakened and exhausted. Silence chases the shadows of your eyes. Dark circles line your bloodshot eyes. Watch the water flush down with your diet ( Read more... )