I came home from the funeral about 3 hours ago. I still feel.... I cant explain it. I didnt think it was going to hurt or feel this bad. I havent seen him in about 3 years, but we used to be close. He still treated me with kindness and respect even when a lot of other people didnt. We did so much together. He took me to get my nipples pierced! And ( Read more... )

Geez i cant believe tomorrow is New Years Eve. 2008 will be over. Man that means i will no longer be 21. Jan 26th i will officially be 22. Ahhh! It's kinda scary. Everything is going by so fast ( Read more... )

im still here 21. ill write soon.....

I stole this from my sister ( Read more... )

A new begining, a clean slate, that's all I ever wanted. I wanted a chance to start all over again, to make something out of my life without havin people judge me all along the way. Well i cant exactly sit here and say that i have been given that chance totally, because i havent. But i have found somethin. Someone has been added to my life that i ( Read more... )

Without you.
Without you the hand gropes, the ear hears, the pulse beats.
Without you, the eyes gaze, the legs walk, the lungs breath.
The mind churns.
The heart yearns.
The tears dry, without you.
Life goes on, but I'm gone.
Cause I die, without you.

So it was Easter. A time when you get together with your family and celebrate that Jesus has risen. But that's what it wasnt about today. That's not really what it's about to anyone. It's about gettin a Easter basket and going to your grandmas or families to eat dinner with everyone. But it wasnt even that anymore. I had to work today and I live ( Read more... )

So I thought yesterday was going to be just a great day. I didnt have to work, I was going to accomplish a few things, and I was going to hang out with my best friend and go to a concert. What could be better? When you add drinking and drugs into the equation everything always gets messed up. I mean, it wasnt me or my friend that were taking the ( Read more... )

I have to write about this even tho it's so stupid because it's making me go crazy in my head and my heart ( Read more... )

I wanted to believe you so bad that I made all logic disappear. I knew you were lying, but I just wanted so badly for you to be telling the truth. Everybody told me you were full of shit. My heart told me not to trust. But I did anyway. I thought I could mold the truth. I thought i was in charge, but i wasnt. I was bein played and whats even worse ( Read more... )