Hey hey boys and girls. Sorry it's been so long since I last posted but it has been one hell of a year so far. However I won't bore you with my lame ass excuses for letting my journal entries lapse and instead shall just get on with it ( Read more... )

Hey ho children! I'd have written this sooner but the information contained has required some time for me to process let alone be capable of talking about frankly.

As you all know I ran into N.L. the week after my birthday. All we got was twenty minutes together but since then I hadn't been able to stop thinking about him. It got so bad that I ( Read more... )

First off I want to start by apologising to all of my rabid regular readers. I know it’s been some time since my last journal but the truth is I simply haven’t known how to put things into words lately. Too many thoughts swirling around the old brain and not enough of an ability to process them efficiently. What with me turning 32 last month (I ( Read more... )

To my dearest N.L.,

This is probably one of the hardest and most difficult letters I have ever had to write and knowing that you may never even read it makes the task none the easier.

I was damaged when I was young and unprepared to defend against the things that broke me, and then further events conspired against me to finish the job so by the time  ( Read more... )

I'm going to cut out the bullshit and my usual opening blurb today and start by thanking Missus for inspiring me to write about a difficult topic. As my usual readers will know, last Thursday marked the twelfth anniversary of the loss of my unborn son. A difficult day to put it mildly as I remember the loss of both my children on that date. This ( Read more... )

'Lo guys and babydolls! Hard as it might be to believe I'm actually struggling to find words to get me started tonight. Much of the reasoning for that is because of what day it is. I can't quite wrap my own head around the fact that today marks twelve years since I miscarried my son. As always this is the worst day of the entire year and one that ( Read more... )

Evening guys and dolls. I hope that wherever you are the weather is much nicer than it is down our way. For over a week we've had nothing but wind, rain (lots and lots of bloody rain!) and extremely cold temperatures. At least we've avoided any flooding or power cuts though so it isn't all bad. Apart from the weather I have done an act of supreme ( Read more... )

What's this you say? A second journal entry in as many days? It's an Easter miracle! But no, not so, for I am hardly as pure as Jesus H. Christ (and incidentally what does the H stand for? I wonder if it's short for holy, hmmmm) nor would I want to be. I can't imagine Jesus on his days off from preaching to the masses sitting in a mud hut and ( Read more... )

Hey hey guys and dolls! How y'all coping now that winter is over and spring is starting to make it's presence felt? Personally I'll feel infinitely happier when the rain stops and the cool breeze blows across the sunny skies. Not that I'm a sunny gal mind it's just that I prefer warm and dry to cold and damp. Then again who doesn't?!

I know that it ( Read more... )

Buenos dias señors y señoritas. Cómo estás? Okay that has just about exhausted what I can remember of my GCSE Spanish so I'll now revert back to my native tongue if that's alright by you. Good? Good! So another week has come to a close and as it has a new addition to my tattoo collection is currently healing on my body. I never thought I would have ( Read more... )