Last summer, I was down to 245 lbs. I went to the doctor yesterday, and was 276 lbs. I feel like I can't accomplish anything. I was doing so well, then I messed it all up. Now, I'm back at the point where I don't even want to go out in public anymore because of how big I am. I don't want to be like this anymore.

So, now I'm living in Supply, North Carolina, with my fiance', Rex. We had met through a friend, Joseph, who I had met through a guy, Eric, that I was dating. When Rex and I started talking, we clicked right away. We moved in together, and on my Birthday, he proposed. Everything has been amazing. Secretly, we have sort of been trying to have a baby ( Read more... )

Simple as that... And I'm going to wait

So, I got a job, I'm working at the Day Care at my Gym, and I usually work out afterward, if not twice that day. I've met a new guy, and his name is Chris. Things have been pretty good between us. We act like ourselves, and seem to really like each other. Problem is, he lives an hour and a half away. I guess that's a good thing because it gives me ( Read more... )

So I just got off the phone with Kris. He saw Todd last night. Todd is upset with me because he's in jail, but apparently he's still in love with me, and wants to be with me. He said that Todd said that when he gets out, he's going to come up here and get me. I welcome it. I can't see my life without him. I will wait for him. Even if it does mean I ( Read more... )

So, naturally, I'm back in South Carolina. I've talked to Todd a lot, and everything was great. He said he had plans for coming up here, and really wanted to change his life.... Until he called me, begging me for money because he had screwed over the wrong people, and my life was in jeopardy, too. So, I sent him the money... Then I find out that ( Read more... )

Alrighty, so I'm back in Myrtle Beach... big surprise, right? When I was living in Florida, I was dating this guy named Todd. Technically, we're engaged, but whatever. I love Todd. I love Matt, still, who I hung out with yesterday. FML.

Ok, so I pretty much live in Florida now. I have a job as a nursery school teacher at a homeless shelter/outreach center. I am staying with my sister until I am able to afford living on my own, and oh yeah, I have an amazing boyfriend. Granted, he lives in Myrtle Beach, but we're doing the whole long distance thing. I feel it would be the best ( Read more... )

So, pretty much, no one wants to "take care of me" anymore... So I will be going down to Florida for Christmas... and I'm not too sure about when I'm going to be back. My life has totally spiraled out of control, and now I feel like I'm out of place again. So much for my happy day. But, Matt's getting what he wants, and I guess that's my Christmas ( Read more... )

So last night, I was totally fine with Matt and me breaking up... Now I woke up to the reality of it. Yeah, we're still living together, and we're still friends, but that means no more money for me. It it bad that, that's the main reason why I'm even remotely upset? He didn't even ask me to drive him to work this morning. Oh, well... I could say ( Read more... )