I love you. even though I get mad a lot and cry a lot. but I want that to change.. I want to give you more space and trust you more.

I will be in the Keene area tomorrow - sometime Sunday :)
wooo. yay.

I miss Maxwell, and I still really miss my grandma. It's strange to think that her life is over.. that everything that happened in her life came to an end. It's hard to understand and really grasp the fact that's what will happen to everyone someday. No one escapes it. So.. we have to make our lives worthwhile. We have to get every happy moment we ( Read more... )

I don't think I've been thinking clearly lately.  I haven't seen what an incredible thing I have right in front of me. I keep losing sight of how happy I really am. I think I'm probably bipolar.. my moods are completely nuts.. but I'm trying to keep an eye on them.. I'm trying to keep them under control ( Read more... )

suddenly everything is getting better.. except my moods are still really crazy. I had a really bad night the other night. I just kept crying and I don't even know why. but yesterday was a good day, although I had to really watch my moods at certain times to be sure they were under control.

In a way, I'm really glad to be getting out of here the 12th-15th. I miss my family so much. It'll be good to see new york, see my sister, John, Margie.. and my mom and dad and Brian.. It'll be a really fun weekend ( Read more... )

So I've had a rough first week back at school. The first weekend was a lotttt of meetings, training stuff, etc. for the Wellness Community. Also mixed in with that was a LOT of time spent with Tyrel, which really upset the rest of my friends. I know they weren't angry at me, they were just sad and disappointed, because I really neglected to spend ( Read more... )

well, it seems things have definitely gotten better.

but I wanna get out of this building and go do something, I wanna get off this campus so bad.. but I wanna stay in Keene. I wanna go to Wheelock park or Ashuelot park or something.
and why do I miss Tyrel so much and wanna see him so bad if I just saw him yesterday?

why is it so hard for me to talk? And yes, it may seem a little early to be talking about this but I think it's better that I get it out now than, say, a month from now. If I started asking for more/different things a month or so from now it would come as a shock, wouldn't it ( Read more... )

going back to Keene on Thursday morning!!! I am so excited. I can't believe it's the day after tomorrow:)

..and I hope I dont get a call back tomorrow morning about that message I left =X