Life is still going well. School is almost over just one more final for me. I did well, i slacked a little bit but im taking care of it. I might actually get a couple "A's" I will be here in Jax for an extra week sleeping at different houses and working. I leave for home on the 17th and once i get there its going to be non stop ( Read more... )

How do you find the right path. When you make a choice and everything in your life starts going right is that a sign that you made the right choice? Or is it telling you that where you are is where you should be? From about July i started entertaining the idea of moving back to colorado, it seemed like the best move. However, being back in ( Read more... )

Ok... the past month has been crazy and im so totally confused. It is just my constant state of being at the moment. 4 weeks ago i was in a pretty intense accident that landed my car in a tree on the side of the highway. I wasnt hurt badly... just a swollen face from the airbag and some scrapes and bruises. What i dont understand is why i wasnt ( Read more... )

Today was a crazy day... Karen, my boss wanted me to grill some sausage for dinner tonight so i go out and turn on the propane then the burner and then light it. I leave it to warm up and when i come out the entire back patio is filled with smoke. I look at the bbq and flames are coming out of it so i turn it down... when that doesnt work i just ( Read more... )

this weekend has to have been one of the all time bests! so friday i go out with this guy... we have pb&j's at his place and watch a couple movies... cuddling and what not. we talked and what not and then finally he musters up the courage to kiss me and damn can he kiss. So we stay up all night talking and kissing till 9in the morning. Then we ( Read more... )

so school is good. However i have fallen behind a tiny bit in my reading.... well lets face it, i fell behind one day and now im drowning in pages of words. I just need to lock myself up somewhere and read read read till im ahead. Yea... that's not going to happen. Im getting really excited for my birthday... exactly 2 weeks from today i will ( Read more... )

It has been a really long time since i have updated this thing. Life has been crazy and extremely busy. When i got back from my vacation in colorado i decided that it would be best for me to live on campus at JU and then at the end of the year transfer back home to Colorado. So from the middle of July to now i have been working non stop to get ( Read more... )

I'm visiting home in colorado and its a struggle. On the one hand i get to visit my past so to speak and almost return to what is comfortable. but on the other hand i return to what i tried to get away from in the first place. im not a part of life here anymore. i left. and everything here continued to be... and coming back to it ive been ( Read more... )

sometimes i get so frustrated or angry that it all comes out in tears. I am upset to the brink of balling my eyes out and for no real reason. And there is no real reason for me to be so angry either... i should be frustrated but not this angry. I just want to hurt something hit something... hurt myself even. Just to let it out. I hate when i ( Read more... )

Work is becoming very frustrating. They can't get their shit together and its all overflowing onto me. They can't really afford the lifestyle that they are trying to live and its starting to bite them in the ass. I am definitely going home of the first week of July... hopefully the second week as well, but its not looking too promising at the ( Read more... )