Why did I dream about her haven't seen her since I was 11 or 12, maybe 13. It was weird, This guy Chris I met at work was there, and Rager, but them and besides Ashley/Christin no one else I know was there, also It was like I was in school, AU High or some shit. It drifted very far from where it started.......Oh, yeah I ate a hotdog with a side of ( Read more... )

Well it seems my sisters husband decided to put on his douchebag-hat and pushed my little sister last night. I will destroy him with every fiber of my being, I swear to it. And when told that I was going to beat his ass when I found out he had the nerve to laugh, the man that talked shit forever about how he could take me, then backed down when I ( Read more... )

We both knew we wouldn't ( Read more... )

Last episode Rei kicks me right in the nuts: someone who hates them selves can't love or trust anyone. 7.5 to go.

I keep telling myself to move on and forget this whole mess, really all the mess of my past. But it's really hard when you can't relate to people. It's hard to trust anyone, and I'm not the type of person that's easy to get to know beyond all the superficial bullshit. How much do even my friends and I know about each other, not nearly as much as we ( Read more... )

Seeing your tattoo again made me smile, it always did. I blamed it on illness, ignorance is bliss, two nights ago you proved otherwise. I've called out, confessed in my dreams, but when I wake my courage quickly fades. What was it exactly that made the conversation go that way? I said no.

What did I do to you? You didn't say "Hi." , you wouldn't even look at me....you just stared past as if I wasn't there.

But I still said "No.".... given the circumstances, I wish I could go back......this is entirely out of character for me. You're the closest I've ever been to happy. I wish I could get drunk and stay that way, never have another sober moment again, you wouldn't approve oh that though, would you?  Well.....what's the point.....even if I did get a ( Read more... )

Past mistakes, regret, things that should have been said, things I wish I could go back and say......

I should have said yes.

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