I have a past. Everybody has a past. Mine seems to be inescapable, and it is continuing to wreck havoc on so many parts of my life, and of myself, and I am fed up with it. I have known forever what my own inner issues were, but until recently I have not been motivated enough to try to work on them and make some serious changes. It is hard to ( Read more... )

No matter how tired, cranky, or in a rush I am, I can no longer leave the house without a belt! My pants have been falling down all day long, it's quite embarassing. Losing weight is supposed to be a good thing...and it is, as long as I have my good friend the belt with me ( Read more... )

One of those times that lyrics can portray how I feel right now better than I can...and don't assume that you know who this song even applies to ( Read more... )

hold on so nervously ( Read more... )

that is the only word that can do my weekend justice ( Read more... )

Sometimes I love my job...yesterday was definitely one of those days. Today's not so bad either, except I have other shit on my mind that's kind of making me not enjoy the day so much ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted. I slept 3 hours last night, I just couldn't calm down...I haven't slept well in a few nights. I am packed, but still have a lot of stuff left to do tomorrow morning before the move. It's weird, that this is actually happening. After I write this, I won't be online for a few days...we won't have internet for at least a week, so when I ( Read more... )

Packing is too hard to do right now. It's too emotional to rediscover cards, love letters, engagement ring, and the like. I know what is in my past, who is in my past. I carry it with me always. But to read things from a few specific people, telling me they love me forever and can't wait for our future together...well look at us now, we have no ( Read more... )

After work today I am going out my with my work buddies Michael and Justin, for a goodbye Michael celebration at Chile's, and Michael said he won't order food until he has had enough to drink and had at least 3 free baskets of chips from the bar!...I am excited, it will be a good time, but I don't want Michael to leave...he has been my salvation in ( Read more... )

Last Thursday was the DPhiE alumnae ceremony...and of course I was there, because I have been to almost everything all semester...I can't leave those girls....and after I watched a few more of my friends in the sorority become alum, I was happy to have some new friends in the alum club!, but sad too, because there are not many girls left in DPhiE ( Read more... )