Missing my buddy

[savage1005]

I am having a very tough time with the loss of  RS.  When i thought of shows and live music, most of the time i'd think of him. He was my boy, my prospect, my hope for the future of the music scene.  I thought he was destined to be the next big musical artist of the jamband community and everything was setup for him to be that.   He had so much

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I am so happy for you

[camilee]

to feel this empowerment. You have changed so much in such a short period of time. You've always been a fantastic person, but you seem to be moving more toward your full potential now. You can create whatever life you wish to have. People don't believe that so they don't try, but now you know that. Again, I'm so happy for you!

What have you been creating?

I'm so sorry that there's so much pain with RS's passing. This is an adjustment that's going to take a long, long time, I know, but that doesn't mean it will be "okay" one day. But yes, he seemed to have lived life to the fullest and followed his passion, which is SO inspiring. I know there's a place in your heart that's emptied because of his absence. I'm glad that you and your friends have each other to lean on. If you need me, too, I'm here. I hope it's okay that I wrote.

Re: I am so happy for you

[savage1005]

thanks. i have been working on a few things. story ideas, a couple songs. i've decided to start writing again. i want to buy a guitar but spent to much on tickets this week, so i am going to wait a little longer, but i hope to work on learning to play in the evenings and write. i can't remember the last time i played a videogame, its been that long. i told my friends i couldn't be in the gears league because there is so much going on with me and videogames are no longer a big hobby in my life. Id like to play some little big planet soon though, because you create stuff in that game and it expands your imagination. that's about the only game i'd probably play anymore. I want to stimulate my mind more. read more, write more. Do puzzles. And just learn new things. I also want to go out more with my friends and build stronger relationships with them. I don't want to go back to how i was before you, or even how i was with you for most of the time. I don't like who i was then. i never challenged myself.