at work tonite, i felt like my soul wasn't in me.  like it had left on another adventure, and all that was left was my body going through the motions.   i felt like a zombie robot.   it is imperative that i create something fresh and interesting for myself, for my work is played out.  I can't go on doing this any more.  My mind has already moved on ( Read more... )

well, after yet another crappy shift at the magg, i have what could be a wonderful sunday ahead of me.  Panther football begins, and i hope our team is stellar this year but we shall see. just football starting on sundays in general gets me excited. to know that the fall weather is coming with it, and the sensations that that brings.

i feel down today. really down. but i know its temporary.  just that feeling of something gone from my life makes it feel a bit more empty.   And i feel like i have to scramble to fill the emptiness.  but i don't.   i need to just relax and think about all that was there that would make me feel even more uneasy than i do now.  there is something ( Read more... )

I feel i am on the verge of something fresh , something new.  i just have to shed the financial anchor that keeps me from sailing off to better waters.   Its not just how i might be beginning a new career appraising houses.  There is more to it.  I have many things i want to change.  I am starting to finally see what is so beautiful about life, but ( Read more... )

i haven't posted in a while.. not like anyone would give a shit cause no one reads this anyways.  Recently I am longing for the feeling of sailing.  I want to shove off from shore and sail out on the water again, like i did years ago..  what a fucking feeling.  it is amazing ( Read more... )

Everyone wants holes in their life to be filled and I am no exception.

 I feel that it is possible for there to be meanings or messages behind mans' encounter with animals. There needs to be more research. I feel it can be prophetic and symbolic.  Nature heals wounds like none other.  I also feel i have spent too much time within my own walls in my lifetime and i need to go out more to have fresh moments and

Just in case you are snooping my live journal, i want to wish you a happy birthday. i love you!!!

The triumphant return of Phish! hurray!  i feel an old piece of me that felt vacant is now complete again.   i have been seeing them since I was 16 so its like second nature to be irresponsible , let go of the world and go party with old friends and see good music.  I am thinking about going out to Washington for the Gorge shows.


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so yeah. my good friend is still gone, and i still feel empty inside.  its a hard weight to bear. the closer hampton gets, the more i think about the shows and how i will be there and he won't be, and i feel the absence of him. but i will be there, and i will have the best of times with his  sister ( Read more... )