And I always thought I could make it everything alright

[savage_muffin]

I don't think I've ever felt so horrible in my life before. No matter how much I try, I end up hating my self because of all the confusion I manage to cause for myself. I miss him so much. It hurts. But there isn't any easy way out. I swear I tried to look into myself and find something...fucking anything to help me find the right answer...

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[_danceitfuckers]

we need to pose.

[vampiress1423]

wtf....

[_danceitfuckers]

hi, im robin williams.

[vampiress1423]

Lia I think that you underestimate what you can do in your life. yes this is going to be one of the hardest thing you will ever have to do BUT you will pull through it you just have to be the you that I know you can be. I know that you feel like total shit right now and you want to run back to him and that could be because youve been running back to him everytime you do feel like shit and because you do love him but i dont know. Its natural for you to feel like you want to be back with him hes been there for so long and done so much for you AND you have done so much for him even if you think you havent YOU HAVE. ive seen it. You also shouldnt suppress the feelings of crying and things like that it will just make it worse get all that shit out your allowed to you just broke up with your bf of two years so fuck the people who say get over it and blah blah. You are feeling how you are feeling and dont let anyone stop you from feeling the way that you do just try for yourself to make yourself feel better....it will take time yes but I

[savage_muffin]

Thanks...I know what you mean. I feel better today I guess. It's just really hard but I know I can get better. I think school starting this coming week and all that is going to really help me. I guess in away its a new beginning. ...its hard feeling lonely, but I guess I just have to be strong and allow myself to be used to be being me...not me depending on someone else. Bah...its gonna be wierd. But I guess it is going to be a good necassery wierd. Thanks for being there. I really appretiate you not just telling me 'oh everything is going to be fine and dadadada' cause the reality is that nothing is ever fine for any of us and that shit like this hurts for a little while but then you learn to grow up and become stronger and move on. So good luck to both of us, maybe soon we can finally find a life we want.

[vampiress1423]

lia that was so emo. lol. True life is never going to be fine EVER and anyone that tells you else wise is on drugs. Life is usually one lump of fucked upness with lots of good times mixed in and thats what makes it life its great at times and others its not. You just have to role with the punches and wait till the great times. we will find the life we want trust me we will dont you doubt that...♥ love ya always Jen

[vampiress1423]

wow i jsut said love you always...I feel like such a lesbian....lol