I wish stuff sometimes ( Read more... )

can't think really good. can't remember what's going on half the time or what I've done recently...
last night me and shareef 'broke up', which is miraculous considering we were never really together in the first place.
the words 'it's just not working' and 'let's keep in touch' were definitely used.
he came home hours after me and there was just ( Read more... )

I don't know why I insist on writing in this thing even when I have nothing to say, and nothing is happening, and my brain just feels like stupid fevery mush ( Read more... )

good lord things change so fast. I'm at the library right now, down the street from the house I moved into... with the aforementioned stranger that I kissed... 6 weeks ago. I know, crazy right? sometimes I feel like I really, really am. sometimes I feel like the luckiest person in the world, but those times come less and less frequently these days ( Read more... )

Things seem to be accelerating rapidly these days. Sometimes it's hard to tell where it started and where it will surely end. Sometimes it's hard to believe that things are really as good as they seem when I'm waking up in his arms, or falling asleep in them, or getting taken care of like I swore you never would again. Occasionally it's plausible ( Read more... )

Hi there, this is you, writing from work. At the current time, you're trying to covertly promote your party and keep up
the promotion company myspace while sitting smilingly behind a reception desk at the wellness center. The current
time is 12:40pm which means you have been here for about two and a half hours. You were late for work today. No
one ( Read more... )

I deal in self-fulfilling prophecies. I'm afraid that things are going to fall apart, and because I fear it, it happens in my head before anything actually goes wrong. I manifest disaster. Last night I remembered why it's not cool to date two people at the same time. Last night I remembered how I have no willpower and just like always, all I wanted ( Read more... )

I ain't being funny
I ain't got the breaks
I ain't got the aces
I ain't got the stakes...

if only.

I got a job. I get paid. I go out and see people. I sleep regularly when I'm not having fever dreams. I go to drum and bass parties a lot, I've met the kind of people that can help me throw them when I'm ready. next month I'll be getting a house in the ( Read more... )

home now, and things are definitely looking up... I think? I feel like I actually have a social life for the first time in longer than I can remember. a real one, where the people I spend my time with are actually around each other because they want to be, and not because they don't know what else to do. I met a boy. as scary as it is I think it's ( Read more... )

I guess the best that I can do now is pretend that I've done nothing wrong
and then dream about a train that's gonna take me back where I belong.

Not a train, but I am going home today. Thank god.

No matter how many times I come back here, I never fail to be astonished by this town and it's ability to bring out the absolute worst in a person. I was ( Read more... )