There are so many things that I've realized this summer that despite the fact that this summer has been filled with so much useless and pointless bullshit, I've grown to appreciate it in a way ( Read more... )

i don't want someone to tell me they love me. i don't want promises of undying love or descriptions of the depth of someone's feelings. if you have to go to such great lengths to describe it to me then it isn't real. i don't want it. i don't want this. i may be a bad person for not wanting it but to me true love is displayed with actions, not words ( Read more... )

lately i find myself just wanting to come home after work and be alone because i'm more content alone than when i am with other people. but at the same time, when i am alone i feel a certain emptiness. it's as if there is some void that i need to fill this summer and i will figure out what it is. i know that a lot of it comes from really wanting to ( Read more... )

I got a 100 on my spanish oral exam. hell yeah. I'm getting A's on pretty much every assignment I turn in and it feels so good ( Read more... )

so many good things are happening lately. i got a 98 on my stat test, a 125 on my spanish test and i've been working my ass off ( Read more... )

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this is going to sound like the whole cheesy new years speech kind of thing but i can't help feeling the way i'm feeling right now. at this exact moment a year ago i would have never pictured myself where i am now. at that point in my life i was a silly little hopeless girl who let someone else control her, who blinded herself to how truly selfish ( Read more... )

for finals i have 30 pages of papers to write
2 tests to study for
and at least 20 hours worth of art work to complete

i will die

I never imagined that I could end up in this place. I am studying so fucking hard and prioritizing and engaging and listening with so much intent that sometimes I feel like my head is going to burst. I am actually friends with my professors. I eat lunch with them and hang out in their offices and we laugh and joke together and it makes me upset ( Read more... )

 things that are good:
having old friends stay in touch and new friends that are completely wonderful.
laying around all day watching movies and cuddling. 
thanksgiving swiftly approaching. 
leaves changing color. 
everything about dan. 
having a good relationship with my momma. 
so many shows coming up.
reuniting with those that i love. 
holiday movies on ( Read more... )