I feel so lonely

 I used to love christmas but this gift giving shit is stressing me out. How come on one day of the year we have to shower people with gifts. Why not buy them little thoughtful things through out the year ( Read more... )

Then Bryan calls and apologizes for our little fight.  I still can't shake this cold feet feeling, but I guess that is natural.

I'm kind of longing for boots and sweater weather.

So, this is my life.
And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and
I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.

I just made that
but it was a lose/lose situation.

You know how you feel if you fall in a dream? Like your head gets tingly and you feel slightly breathless.

thats how my head feels often times during the day. I don't know what causes it.

Afterwards I feel slightly nauseated.

"Anybody can look at a pretty girl and see a pretty girl. An artist can look at a pretty girl and see the old woman she will become. A better artist can look at an old woman and see the pretty girl that she used to be. But a great artist - a master - and that is what Auguste Rodin was - can look at an old woman, portray her exactly as she is… and ( Read more... )

the guy I am supposed to buy a car from isn't answering his phone or email.

I'm getting worried he isn't going to sell it to me anymore or something ...
I hope he gets back with me

Bryan has no job
this economy sucks (which sounds like such a cliche statement already)

2009 fuck you !

In other news I am planning the senior send off event for UWF.  I am nervous and excited. Shouldn't be to hard but I have such big plans for it and probably little to no budget.

"When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn't make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares are still walking. When we hold each other, we feel -- not safe, but better. "It's all right," we whisper, "I'm here. I love you." And we lie, "I'll never leave you." neil gaiman

(he always seem to have the best