So I cried last night because my face is the only thing that ever changes in the mirror. My heart stays singed and full of rage. I have been scarred long ago by the devil herself and feel I will never recover. "I hope you will never no eternal love and happiness" she said it years ago and it holds true like a curse brought forth by the keepers of a ( Read more... )

Life in general is confusing the shit out of me right now and i dont know what to do about it. Trained to kill all the evil people over here but not alowed to because of polotics. Death keeps smiling at me but thus far ive been able to give him the bird. But for how long? And if I go who wil fix all the people I have destroyed that DIDNT deserve it ( Read more... )

September is coming to and end and already alot has hapened. I graduated the USMC School of infantry and finally achieved the beloved 0311 MOS. I made Recon division but ultimatley failed to reach the standards required to be with the closest thing to super heroes the united states has to offer. i leave the recon unit on wednesday and go to 1-1 in ( Read more... )

Well i have alot to say but dont fucking feel like saying it to you people. So i'll keep it brief. I am back with Christine marrage (or however you spell that awful word) seems to be in the works. I know this relationship is different because i love her, and this time I see and FEEL love in return. I just got out of basic and am now a paid, ( Read more... )

Well this is my last post for awhile. I'm off to bootcamp in a few hours. I have no regrets and am very excited. I can't wait to prove my family wrong. C.J. is the only one who thinks I can do it, and he's the only one that's right. I'm so ready to devote my blood sweat and tears to the corps. Not to much i feel like saying though so good bye all ( Read more... )

This post is private, more for myself than anyone. But I think it should be read by all of you dear LJ friends ( Read more... )

the reason i am writing this rather than telling you on the phone is because you felt it neccasary to abandon me to my own torturous mind by never picking up the phone, responding to texts, or keeping your promises. i can understand your hostility towards me, and understand why you wish not to talk to me anymore, and i respect your decision. truth ( Read more... )

so irony finaly got me. i got the axe yet again, and lost all of my west coast friends in the process. i've tried in the past to treat all of my girlfriends like royalty when we were together, but got shafted in the end and for some reason didn't see it coming. but i tried to plan out my relationship with christine so it wasn't going to end with ( Read more... )

so irony finaly got me. i got the axe yet again, and lost all of my west coast friends in the process. i've tried in the past to treat all of my girlfriends like royalty when we were together, but got shafted in the end and for some reason didn't see it coming. but i tried to plan out my relationship with christine so it wasn't going to end with ( Read more... )

well here it is. i'm now a private in the united states marine corps, manager of yet another kb toys, and yes still confused. i get shipped off on march 14th and am very ready. things are going as i expected i had a short lived relationship with this girl kat from work, but thoughts of ryann fucked it up. WORD TO THE WISE FOR ALL YOU GUYS: girls ( Read more... )