I am about to face something that I have been running from this whole summer. Something that I replaced with many boys, smoking, dancing, friends. I'm scared. I ran from it for a reason, but the reason seem unclear now. But I have to face it, maybe facing it I will be able to let go, and let me move on. Or maybe it will just bring back hurtful, and ( Read more... )

ive seen you a while now. long enough to be close there are some things about you, that i should know i still dont. with all of the questions we didn't ask our conversations could never last, our moments alone were scarce and few it was just easier to hide the truth. if all of our secrets were exposed would we be sharing the same bed? how about if ( Read more... )

So I hung out with my sister yesterday. It was fun. I got to hang out with her cool bel air friends. I felt special because they were seniors when I was a freshman, I totally felt cool. Yeah, so Slylier was there... haha funny story but in a nut shell I've had a crush on him since I was 6. I'm not being over dramatic either. It turns out that he ( Read more... )

Well, Eli (G.) that was for you... Like I said I broke down... well more like cracked, I need to vent and livejournal was there. So thanks again.... for like the billionth time.

white=stupid. ;)

I can't believe the summer is almost over. It makes me sad, yet at the same time I am glad it is almost over. I'm ready to "start a new part of my life" as cliche and cheesy as that sounds ( Read more... )

So I've have good days and I have bad days. I don't know if that is the best way to describe it, or there is some good and bad in each day sounds alittle better ( Read more... )

So right now I'm about as confused as ever. A part of me want to move forward and experience so much... but then the other part of me want to go back to the comfortable, and fimiliar. I'm not used to being out of my "comfort zone" and now that I'm here... I feel so insecure and ugly and fat and I'm finding every single flaw that I have. I feel like ( Read more... )

I'm bored.... I need a job....Life sucks!
haha nice

I don't know what to say...it's one of those things where you have all the words but when it comes down to it, you can't get it in order or make any since of it ( Read more... )

SO i haven't updated because i have nothing to update. Yeah i haven't done anything in two weeks. Not school, nada. I lost half my face and i've been sick. Apparently I don't deal with stress well, and my immune system was down and when that happens i get shingles in my ear. Anyways, i lost movement in half my face and it's gonna be gone for as ( Read more... )