sometimes i feel like i am alone. lately its been this receding feeling i get constantly.

i cant make myself stop feeling it. i try so hard i cry.

my entire life. honestly, for as long as i can remember, people have been doing things for me. everything. when i was little i never cleaned my room, i never let the dog out, fed the cats, picked my dirty clothes up or put the clean ones away. i did nothing but play all the time. i got older and i think that subconsciencly i figured someone would ( Read more... )

i hate seeing people suffer like i did. i just want to reach out and hug them and tell them its going to be alright, but alot of the times people dont like that confrontation and i know that but i really think, i could help. i brought in brownies and blueberry muffins and cookies and popcorn to one of my classes today and shared with them the ( Read more... )

i cant remember the last time i had so little say ( Read more... )

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guess what

tomorrow is my birthday. yeah thats right. ill be 17.

:)

i feel almost as if im living two different lives. on one side i just am. nothing seems to make me feel better or worse in this live. im just dull and completely apathetic. in the other life i am so much more. im feeling amazing things. most of all, i feel accepted. like no matter how much shit i have to go through in my life these people will ( Read more... )

my boyfriend picked me flowers.

ohmygodohmygodohmygod

oohhhhhhh my god!!!!

he is wonderful.

he is amazing.

and im going to wear his bright yellow twinkie pj's pants tomorrow!

oh he rocks.

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i dont know whats funnier..

being chased by a car that was only going 10 milesperhour, in the sad cafe parkinglot.. or having some emokid take a picture of me at dennys.

eh. i dont really remember much from that night anyway.

you know i care so much about you it makes me sick that you can just toss me aside.