its 5:30 am and i just woke up from falling asleep last night during some drinks with spider. he came down after his flight and we went out for drinks than ended up goin back to my place for more, we talked a bout a lot of things just venting and get shit off our chests. shit it was nice to have someone around who understood took a lot of my back, ( Read more... )

so i just got out from taking a warm shower. god that was relaxing but tonight basically was, after all the bullshit i was able to talk to some people and unwind some, lately ive just been a big ball of nerves, and liable to go off at anyone. many people have witnessed this, but now im doing better. i was over christinas earliar tonight she went to ( Read more... )

people say i should try.. i tried , i really did.. but i fucked it up again and again and now i dont know what else is left.. i dont know what to do with myself i find myself pushing everyone away at the moment thinking thats the solution gettin away from everyone will make me stop hurting them. and than i look at myself and think of how bitter and ( Read more... )

So baby did you sleep an hour for me?
How I wish I was there right now.
I wasn't going to tell you I could change things.
I'm afraid I never will know how.
But I don't really think that I can take it.
Will I make it alone somehow?
So hold me in your arms before I leave you.
I'll be back as soon as time allows.i sit here looking up at the ceiling.. ( Read more... )

( the damned things i say )

i have a lot of things on my mind. im sick. and i need to talk to certain people about certain things, i also think andrew is sexy, and im going to steal him from sanoe :-x

alright im done updating. yeah that sucked

-Mark

( the best lyrics ever written )

i decided i wanted to update but dont exactly know what about. well lets see well start with yesturday, me and christina sorta had a mini fight but not really i think she thought i was more upset at her than i really was, and it kinda hurt shed think id hate her over something so small *sighs* but yeah were over that fight now.. and i ended up ( Read more... )

i decided its time to update this thing again because a lot of things can happen within 24 hours ( Read more... )

ive never felt so sick in my life, and i just sit here shaking for some reason and its not helping me at all, ive never been attacked so hard last night by so many people that i did last night and in all seriousness im not stable enough to go through that again so im packing my shit and going back to newport, and going to live at my moms beach home ( Read more... )