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I love this fake sense of control I've given myself the last little while.  I don't even recognize certain things and the unusual pains are like a confirmation that it's all working.  Like when you take disgusting tasting medicine and it makes you want to yak but you're happy since you assume you'll feel so much better soon.  Oh, it's all happening ( Read more... )

Fuck, I miss halfway decent natural light.

There are certain bands that have a hold on my heart and just never let go.  People will laugh, that is A-OK.  I drove to the city yestaday blaring Blink 182 all the way down the highway.  That's right.  I did my best nasal-y Tom singing and air drummed along with Travis.  I also laughed at myself quite a bit while doing this, but it gives you that ( Read more... )

I know I don't know how to react, I know I get awkward and stupid when you say things, I know I laugh at all the wrong times.  But fuck, I'm glad you called.  This cuppa soup is not making me feel much better.  In fact I think I may yak.  I find it amusing how excited I get over over people's weddings when realistically I don't understand them at ( Read more... )

Uh oh, I feel another listening-to-nothing-but-this-song-on-repeat-for-the-next-week-or-so phase coming on.

I am in an incredibly grand mood! I have not been this stupid happy in a long while, and it's fabulous. Things that are making me stupid happy as of late always end up making me stupid sad later, so this is a nice change of pace. BOOMSHAKA! My stupid "fail to stop" traffic ticket was thrown out as the stupid cop was 'sick'. HAH! I bumped into ( Read more... )

FUCK i'm glad xmas is over for one more whole year! yaaay. next year i swear i'm going to just go to africa for the duration of december and get it over with. or just drive to some random city in ontario since i can't afford to go somewhere like africa and tell people i have gone to africa for vacation and really just hide out in some motel in a ( Read more... )

I don't even remember the last time I felt this utterly drained.

... i don't even know where to start!

has anyone else noticed december is always a shitshow? i'd like to write myself off for this entire month. i have no moral compass. i have no concept of what might be a bad idea. way too much damage control. i have a strange constant feeling of guilt. please disregard me for the next 25 days.