I hate this fucking anxiety, but I think my disdain for dependency leaves me no options.  Nothing scares me more than how quickly this time is passing but I'm dying for days in undies and tee-shirts, dresses and sandals.  Laying in grass and skin tingling under the sun.

I've buried myself in this smoke filled room, my head is spinning and the bottles are piling.  I forgot how good I am at lying.  This is the first time it's made me a little uneasy.  You've been leaning on me for so long I'm not sure how I'm still standing, it's getting a little redundant.  Questions consume me that I can't bring myself to ask, and ( Read more... )

I want to talk about masturbation and death without the uncomfortable laughs and awkward looks.  Your cheeks don't have to burn red when we talk about our favourite porn and share tips on how to make it last.  I want to know if the way you sigh when you're tired is the same kinda way you sigh when you're almost there.  Our platonic relationship is ( Read more... )

We have to quite carefully imagine ourselves.
Two bodies express architectural damage.
The kind of beauty that carries violence.
You can go, but just don't leave me.

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i am the heart that you call home.

after having an absolutely amazing weekend start to finish,
and finishing one of my fleeting last days at work, busy beginning to end,
watching the rain pour down and swallow this little town,
i realize i am truly happy, even if just for these moments.

oh lj i missed you.

i have a constant feeling of guilt looming lately, i'm waiting for the axe to drop, everything went too smoothly and too perfectly, this can't work out so well at all.  i'm going to get crushed soon, i know it.

there's a lot of things i hate about this photo but a few things i like. 

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I miss posting to this silly thing.  My computer was broken for over a month and then I was on vacation and now I am finally back into the reality of my newmi life.  I have been craving more than ever getting out of here for good these days.  My contentedness with this town is officially over, I think.  It has too much shit on me.  This town and ( Read more... )

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