Whew. I'm so drugged up right now it's ridiculous. That's a good thing though. I'm pretty damn sick and mom finally decided to take care of me. Maybe the fact that I looked like DEATH when she walked into my room this morning helped. I don't even remember yesterday. I remember driving when I shouldn't have been. I also remember getting in a ( Read more... )

Eleanor just left. I couldn't stand there the whole time to watch her off to her gate. I held myself together well up to a certain point, then I just had to wave and walk away before I cracked. I did better than I expected though. Proud of myself somewhat ( Read more... )

So big decision was made lastnight. I will not be attending Gulf Coast. Mom said she would much rather me get my health (physical and mental) in the best shape I can before I head back up to North Carolina. She understands that going to GCCC would fuck me up more mentally. I guess you just have to know the whole story behind that to understand. ( Read more... )

Sitting here waiting on my laundry to finish. Watching Dawson's Creek. All summer I would wake up and watch both episodes. That's when you know you're wasting your life, when you watch two hours of Dawson's Creek every morning ( Read more... )

Christmas was okay. My main gift was a digital camara which I was very excited about. Other than that it was clothes and what not. We had our dinner, well, lunch actually, and then Dad, Chenoa and I went out to the beach house. We forgot the keys so we came back. I started to watch the Miami vs. LA bball game, but I passed out at half time and ( Read more... )

I spent alot of the night with Anna. We got some more random shopping done. It's funny when it's just the two of us together in public. I'm sure we look like the most obviously dykish couple anyone has every seen in this hick town. Our little shopping adventure was even more entertaining because we kept finding ourselves in the underwear and ( Read more... )

Ahh.. bad day, bad day, bad day! My shopping exerience today was an overall bad one. The ending of my excursion ended particularly horrible. Something (another thing) I need to get help with. Today has been one of those days where I dwell on everything bad. I tend to have times like that. While I'm home there is alot of self searching I must ( Read more... )

You are my sunshine

My only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray

You'll never know dear how much I love you

So please don't take my sunshine away

I love you so much *grin*

13 DAYS!!

Well, here I am. Florida. I knew being home would bother me. I actually thought that it would sink in later how unhappy I would be here. Unfortunatly, these feelings kicked in much earlier than I expected. I think they hit somewhere around, oh, Florida border. Now that I think about it, it was only that late because I tried to sleep most of ( Read more... )