So, OCD is not something that will go away. There are studies suggesting that brain trauma greatly increases the chance of it, and I was dropped on my head as a baby (har har har) so that is certainly possible. The fact that, unlike many other anxiety issues, OCD never goes away does lead credence to the idea that it is a physical difference in ( Read more... )

The house I grew up in often had no lights, and no running water. We carried in water from a near by creek to flush the toilet with. It had a hole in the wall from a fight between my brother and I. It had a hole in the floor from rot. It even had a gun shot hole from when my mother and my brother had... a difficult confrontation fueled by ( Read more... )

When I was young, I used to play a stick-fighting game with padded sticks that we called "swords." These sticks were made of PVC pipe, duct-tape and rolled foam, with a cloth covering of some-sort. There would be about 60 of us on any given weekend, beating each other about the body with these things, pulling the strikes a little to make sure no ( Read more... )

I don’t know what the Carlton can offer me that I don’t get at home, other than a mint on my pillow. It is useless, pointless excess. A dream of America ( Read more... )

"I know the pieces fit 'cause I watched them fall away"
-Tool

For those following these things, the counseling appointment went well enough. Emotional distance, my main line of defense against an awful past, set itself up again as a defense against the tide that is coming... and that has to come ( Read more... )

I am not looking forward to seeing this couselor. Hopefully I will learn new coping mechanisms. In other news, I look fabulous.

Andria is walking with me today to help me with an obsession. Were I to go alone, I would be compelled to eat one Fudge Round and one Brownie from Little Debbies. I understand where this one came from - eating was one of my few releases in my youth, and my mom always bought Little Debbies when she went to the store ( Read more... )

I have been wrestling with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder since I was at least a pre-teen. When I was younger, I did not know what it was... I just knew that certain things had to happen a certain way for me to be comfortable. I am beginning to confront OCD head on, and as part of this I am thinking back to every compulsive behavior that I have ( Read more... )

In reference to peoples mentality towards the Occupy wall Street and the 99 ( Read more... )