I hate when I have to fake a smile for the situation. I know the obvious answer would be not to fake it not to lie to everyone, but then I have to deal with the, "What's wrong, Steve?" and "I can't believe you're still upset, Steve." and the ever-popular, "You can talk to me, Steve." Ugh. So, I wear my masquerade smile and fake whatever I need ( Read more... )

Ugh... I'm supposed to be at work. It's not usually like me to take time off work, but I was there and I just felt like dying. My manager came up to me and said, "Hi, Steve! How are you?" I just looked up at her and said, "Can I go home?" she said yup. So, I'm not at work. I really didn't feel like being there today ( Read more... )

I know this may be a "duh" kind of statement, but...
I find it kind of funny that when you do drugs to escape/feel "better" when you are done you end up worse than you felt beforehand.

The fool says: "I love you, because I need you."
The wise man says: "I need you, because I love you."
-Nietzsche

So, a couple days ago I realized that I've been a huge asshole lately. As well as, treating people as playthings in my treacherous little game, and saddling them with situations just to see their reaction. So, apologies to every one ( Read more... )

Lately, things have seemed to be at a standstill. I can't stand it. The work, eat, sleep shit has got to stop. I want something REAL to fucking happen.

Well, I got a Nintendo DS. It fucking rocks so hard. It is quite possibly one of the coolest things ever.

If none of you are busy today.... you should call me.

Boring day...

I need a line.

And a drink would be nice too.

Someone come over. I'm bored.

New phone... whoo!

Give me a call
895-9655

La la la ( Read more... )

If today is boring, I'm going to kick your ass.

Today has been.... overwhelming. To say the least. Early, I went to the station with Pete to see him off on his bus to Philly. I gave him a hug goodbye, and as I was watching him leave, I realized, for the first time in my life, that I was living a life. A life that is unique to me and while I can explain it to others, they can never truly ( Read more... )