TOM IS MAKING ME UPDATE, well hmm since i last wrote, i met someone thought i was in love, realized i didt love him, broke up with him and told him the truth, had him ly don a guilt trip EVERYTIME i spoke to him, cried everytime because i felt so terrible. AND i...... hmm... oH! i went to the shrink and found out i have ADHD (that explains a lot) ( Read more... )

last night was hard... and old habits are hard to break.... last night, i realized the habit i feared most has come back.... and i hope i wont do it again, no matter how much i tell myself i wont, im scared because i know i will. if only you knew...

Would you mourn?

has your parents/parent ever made you cry? not from being mean or anything like that just because you hate them so much? because you cant stand them? just because your life seems so unfair with them in it? i cant stand my mother, and i wish she woul just go back to prison.... leave me here alone, i used to be afraid of being alone, but now its all ( Read more... )

i cant stand anyone anymore, you all wallow in your self pity and i dont see the point in it. i cant stand how everyone tell me to fuck off or tells me to stop nagging when im trying to help. im just not going to try anymor, i dont care anymore. im not going to try anymore, for anyone, it does no good and no one ever says thank you and no one ever ( Read more... )

i fucking hate her soooo much! ahhhh! she keeps on commenting on my clothing style and yelled at me for getting mad because of it and told ME to apologize to HER! i hate her soo much, and now because im ebing "disrespectful" she says she wont buy me clothes, which i kind of NEED clothes ahhhh! i dont see why it shouyld affect her when she isnt the ( Read more... )

today has been an okay day, i got to talk to -you-know-who- so it was made better, but it all started out okay. i had to awake early though to go to an english exam review class. then later that day i went to gym and cut myself on a peice of metal, it was bleeding perfusly(or however the spelling goes) so i licked off the blood and people were ( Read more... )

<3today has been another good day.... well as you guys can see haha but everyday seems to turn out better when i talk to him, who is he do you ask? well i probably wont tell you but at least know im happy =]! haha but today was fun i guess..... not really but oh well haha but im listening to my all time favorite band norma jean yes i am! haha okays ( Read more... )

i love this guy soooo much, and i dont care what any of you say if you find out about him, i have never felt this way before, and he actually loves me back, which i never thought would happen, finally i can say im actually happy..... well i have to go.... im just so happy! okay well im going to go get a popsicle now..... byes! love you!

just recently i think i have fallen in lovefor the first time and been loved back for the first time. love can happen at any age, any moment and any place. but with love comes pain. i love you is like saying here is the knife to kill me with. but i cant seem to stay away from the love, and the knife is looking very attractive at the moment.... i ( Read more... )

have had your mother tell you that she couldnt stand to be around you because you made her miserable and pissed her off? does your mother hate you only becausee you hated her first? and then ahs she stormed off in her car only to leave you with your grandmother who tries to use her psychology shit on you? and your gamndmother then asks you if you ( Read more... )