Its been a very long time since I've posted here, so I thought it was time for an update. I finally finished school, I moved from C-town to Cambridge, and I'm trying to get a job doing editing. Since I don't have one yet i'm just working a few small jobs to pay the bills. i'm very tired so i'm going to bed, I'll finish this latter

hannah's going home to get married. she just told me, and now she's gone, i got home her stuff was all boxed the suitcases were ready to go and 10 minutes later the truck showed up for her stuff she gave me a quick kiss and left. her flight leaves in an hour. and all i feel is..... i don't know it may be the drugs or the vodka, maybe both, maybe ( Read more... )

worst month and a half ever ( Read more... )

I finally got a car I'm so happy. I got a virtually brand new cadillac CTS its only a year old and has 10,000 miles on it. Its all black with black leather interior and its got limo tinted windows. God Damn its sexy and its so fast. I took it out on the highway today and without even trying I got it up too 120 miles an hour. I also started an new ( Read more... )

life is definately going well. Hannah and I found an apartment in boston and she agreed to go see a dr about her little problem. It seems like for the first time in a long time things are finally going alright for us.

Its so nice to have someone to fall asleep with everynight and know that they will still be there to love you in the morning.

Die you stupid bitch and when you do I hope you burn in hell for all of fucking eternity.
And so you know I'll be there and when you arive I'll just watch and laugh.

I swear that if you come near her or me again I will send you to whatever fucking god you pray too.

i should just toast myself right now there's no fucking point in me being here. No one give's a fuck no one returns my calls or email's. nobody cares it's that simple I've got the gun I should just fucking use it.

god can it have really been a year ago yesterday? I can't believe its been so long. I love you so much baby. I wish you were here with me now. Things have really been going down hill for me. I need you to come hold me, i wish you hadn't left. I think about you everyday and remember the way you smiled the way you smelled. the smiles the tears ( Read more... )

god This is such a stupid holiday. everybody I know is all excited to be with the people they love. Fuck that. They can actually find someone who loves them. this holiday is just an excuse to give stupid gifts and to fuck. i'm all alone my ribs still hurt like hell my hand is fucked up and i want to kill myself. what a great morning ( Read more... )

so lonely. here at my parents my fucking hand in a cast i can't take this anymore. I miss my friends i miss being held I miss being kissed. I miss everything. I can't take much more of this ( Read more... )