I barely update this. That's okay, I don't have much reason to. Most of my inner-thinking has turned into outer-thinking, thanks to therapy and a decent relationship. So I figured I'd give Mr LJ a bump, and make him feel wanted ( Read more... )

So, here I am ( Read more... )

Good god. Life moves too fast for me to be able to keep up ( Read more... )

Let's discuss the many brick walls I've been hitting.

HOMEI loathe it here. Don't get me wrong, eternally grateful for my parent's hospitality, and the fact that I have a roof over my head, but I'm just not designed for home, and particularly for here. This place is full of horrible memories, and seems to inspire so much more head-fucking ( Read more... )

So, this week my head has been filled with far too much self-loathing, doubt and fear. I'm sick of it. Today I say, "excuse me brain, please buck up so I can have a day that doesn't involve thoughts of self-harm and never waking up ( Read more... )

Watch as I spin, turn, twist and magically transform into an imitation of myself. Impressed? I know I am ( Read more... )

I haven't eaten all day. Couldn't really afford food. But I went to an unsuccessful job interview, hated every second of it, caught the bus back here to Ben's, felt awful about completely and totally over-staying my welcome, cried for an hour and a half, and now I'm about to put make-up back on. Oh, I got rained on too. Fuck you, universe. I'm over ( Read more... )

I gotta tell you, today easily could have been shit ( Read more... )

- I have a job interview on Monday ( Read more... )

Last night I burnt my hand. I didn't even realise what I'd done, until I saw my skin bubbling.

Today I slept in until 1pm, simply because I had nothing better to do.

No one wants to hang with me. And I want to hang with no one.

And so, I ask myself, just what the FUCK are you doing ( Read more... )