it's been such a blur. i can't trace my days backward, and certainly not forward! i like the urgent feeling, i always have and i always will.

one short moment i have to sum up the passed few weeks:
AMAZINGLY TORTUROUS!

so here we are, yes. i've found a new apartment in allentown, i'm not going south. i'm not sure what will happen from here, just that i do feel completely attached to this city and my habits, for now. there is a sadness that i can always relate to. this is the first time i will live completely alone, and i can't wait.

i'm afraid i've lost the gift of writing. words, poetry, stories, especially music. which is really no good, because i rent a space to play my songs and instruments @ 150 bucks a month and all i've done in the past few weeks is move a giant organ into it. i'm just drawing huge blanks. i get nervous when a notebook and a pencil are handed to me. i ( Read more... )