So,the past few days have been busy and it seems like after months and months of nothing really happening and nothing improving,suddenly changes have begun in a big way and i wonder if all the time off was somehow in preparation for the next phase of life ( Read more... )

I so love storms! i get kind of tense and irritated when i feel one building,and then when it breaks,wow,i love that feeling and enjoy watching the lightening.I can't for the life of me understand why people are afraid of them ( Read more... )

I'm at a crossroads in my life ( Read more... )

My friend sent me a text message the other day.He lost his Mother a year and a half ago and he has since taken over the charity work she used to do.So,he was doing a collection for the samaritans the other saturday and he stopped to listen to a busker,who looked homeless and was just kind of chilling and playing this beautiful music with his little ( Read more... )

so maybe sometimes it takes a big storm to clear the air and since the other weekend i have been trying to find ME again,rather than living through depression,or being who i think i'm meant to be ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm in this dark pit that i cannot get out of ( Read more... )

I feel sentimental.The people i miss the most in my life are not dead,not in the general meaning of the word.They still are breathing(as far as i know ( Read more... )

ah i had a total blank moment then and forgot how to update my LJ,how dumb ( Read more... )

so,January is almost gone and i always get a sense of disappointment that i think "this year will be a new start" and i guess this year i do still have that feeling,but also things are moving on,slowly. I'm trying to focus on the stuff that has got sorted this month,i think its more the ground work for where i want to be headed,rather than full on ( Read more... )

so i thought i would get one of these live journal things,well,everyone else is doing it so why can't i?plus it makes me feel less alone,which is sad but true. I plan to update it often as it seems more fun than scribbles in a note book. anyway thats all for now.