sometimes i wish no one had 2 tell me it wasn't a dream. i wish i could live with this disease and just believe its effects. i wish noone told me the truth. i wish i could believe she was still here with me.

i'm in that mode again where i just stop caring and i hate it. i'm fake and the one person in the whole world that i wish cared ignores me. i'm having an out of body experience as i realize how little i can do about my situation. they say fear paralizes, well i'm officially disabled. unable to say anything to the one person i wish above all else ( Read more... )

dancinthrulife38: visited marymount manhatten college 2day ( Read more... )

Go east on Sunrise Highway,
Turn left at Carmen's Avenue,
Go right at the first stoplight,
And I'll be outside waiting for you...

It actually exists and megan pfeiffer and i r gunna find it!!!!

ANYONE IN MY PROM INSANITY PLEASE CHECK UR EMAILS BECAUSE I'VE BEEN ON AN EMAIL CRAZE AND THERE'S ALOT OF INFORMATION AND SUCH THAT I NEED TO HEAR BACK ABOUT FROM EVERYONE!

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i hate me for so many reasons

i don't think i'm ready for any of this. i try to explain my fear, but no one gets it. it's not even a fear more that i just want the year off. i don't wanna go to college. and u know i try to confide in my mom for once in my life and she throws it back at me every chance she gets. i grew up too quick and now im grasping hold of the only childhood ( Read more... )

i dont like who i am usually, but i like who i am when i'm around u. u make me a happy honest person. but i hate that i can't be that way on my own.

i feel really bad. today i have to stay home because i feel really crappy, but i got to help my little sister get ready for her skool dance. i never get to really do stuff like that with her or my brother because i really don't like being home. i've realized that the way i feel towards my father and mother has basically destroyed my relationship ( Read more... )