well, im over beeing emo. i acccept what life is and i understand that i only live once. my lie is beautiful ...maybe a littel fucked up...but that doesnt mean i have to dwell on ot or get in bad moods or get all fucked up of nasty shit. im me. its fun. i say what i think, i do what i want...within reason..and im living my life. i let go of al of ( Read more... )

he needs help getting sober. he wants me to help. he came out to me and told me everything. its bad. hes addicted adn withdrawling. he doenst want to go ot rehab not because he doest want to stop but because he doesnt want to dissappoint his mom again. i told him id be there for him, id be his friend. he needs help. hes falling apart. hes fading ( Read more... )

fuck. fuck. fuck.
i want someone to give a shit.
fuck. fuck. fuck.
everyone is moving on with thier lives.
fuck. fuck. fuck.
im just falling behind, becoming everyone's past.
fuck. fuck. fuck. it.

i like someone. wow! haha. ive liked him for a while. ive found that its really not easy to like someone. i liek him & my friend doesnt or sumthin and its never just abut the way i feel towards somthing, its about what beeing with him could ruin. i dont want my life to be changed i dont want boundaries or rules, but i dotn want to be lonly any more ( Read more... )

i hate everything. i want to get drunk. i want to be with dane. i want him to love me. i want to be anorexic. i want to be plastic. i want to be gorgeous. i want to be good enouhg, want to be that girl he cant live withouhgt. i want my confidence. i want to be rich and powerful, i want to succedd. i want to have my daddy to myself. i want to be ( Read more... )

everythign is atually going ok. my little self hate voice is prety much goign away. i miss my daddy bu i just pictuer him and think happy thoughts now. he calls me every morning jus to tell me that im amazing and he loves me. that helps. oh, and while i'm thinkin about it. i'm really greatful for bonk. she really is the best friend i could ask for ( Read more... )

well, i guess a come down from pot really isnt that bad in comparison from other drugs, but i have nothing to compare it to, and when im coming down back to reality i ahte it. i love beeing high, i love beeing stupid and slow and unaware and happy and talkative and not caring, thats all taken away from me when im sober. i hate it, i cant be happy ( Read more... )

ehh i dunno how to just start typing so heres my akward beginning...well today was ok. the usual, hung out with bianca...trudded through school..math, drama, history. WOO YAY i HATE that fuckign place. i ahte the bestly children who run around like rabbid animals and grope and scream and jump and yell. wat the fuck are people thinking? i mean, how ( Read more... )

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