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It is sort of like cutting, I suppose. I smoke because I like the way it burns my throat. I like the bitter, acid taste that won't wash away. I like the light of the burning leaves, the curl of the smoke, the action of fingers to hand to mouth. I like that what I am doing is killing me. I like breaking down my own self, my own body, my own ( Read more... ) -
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I have made many mistakes in these past 2 years. MANY mistakes. I've lost definition and justification, I've gone back on promises and told lies, cheated and stolen. I've been alone and together and have walked away from a perfect thing and driven away crying, empty and used. I've crossed boundaries and defied limitations and lost all sense of ( Read more... ) -
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You are so far away from me now, love.
Your friends, your life... they are not mine
And mine are no longer yours.
I still pray, though, that we will someday come back together.
It is my single, enduring desire.
It is my wish upon a star.
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You know, the more time I spend out among friends that I know only in the most superficial senses I realize how much I crave a... well, a husband. A man that is my closest friend and compatriot, my comrade and support, my lover and partner in crime ( Read more... ) -
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So I was unpacking, sorting through my boxes of stuff and as I was putting things away I found Amy ( Read more... ) -
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Money sucks. I try to manage but it doesn't matter... you hit a raccoon and then you have to spend $500-$900 unexpected dollars. I'll figure out December's rent when we get there, I guess. You send $50 to pay on a credit card, and then they tell you you are overlimit.
I hate money and this only brings back bitter, heart-broken memories from -
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So I really like Alesana. I bought the album On Frail Wings of Vanity and Wax today. They are so very talentedly emo, so much so that I can deal with the screamo thing. Odd how that works, how I would never have listened to this stuff if not for Zach. The music is super epic, the lyrics dripping with anguish and it just sounds amazing. I think ( Read more... ) -
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How did I get so drizunk? I can tell you how, i had lots to drink. Now I want to go to bed and I am still too drizunk. I managed to drive myself home and that is drunk driving. Thank goodness I didn't get into an accident. Who let me drive drizunk? Thank goodness. Now I just want to go to sleep and it is something I cannot do. I ate all of ( Read more... ) -
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My 16 year old has not texted me since Wednesday. I remember it and grow slightly unhappy, but perhaps it is for the best that I am so easily forgotten. I will try to text him again on Thursday, that way I will have given it a week ( Read more... )