I'VE JUST HAD MY LAST EVER EXAM!! I'VE FINISHED MY DEGREE!! EDUCATION IS OVER! I WILL NOW PROCEED TO GET STONED AND DRINK.

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I'm just tired and exhausted i think but i just can't be bothered with these exams i'm going to do rubbish and its just demoralising. i just feel like its all a waste and i'm worried about what i'm going to do after its all finished. what am i going to do if i can't stay in canterbury, i just don't know what will happen to me. i just keep thinking ( Read more... )

parents came down to visit today, they brought some food with them, always good. They were suggesting that since i hadn't been looking for jobs and missed a lot of them i should do a masters. what the hell? i don't think so, at this point in my life i don't think more education is what i need ( Read more... )

been revising tonight just realised how much of theories and concepts i don't know, a module i'm doing from last year cos i didn't do them cos of depression. the thing is its a different convenor so the two topics i did for coursework weren't covered this year so basically i'm screwed. i don't know nearly half as much as i should and i don't know ( Read more... )

got it in the morning !! am worried will go to bed now.

i didnt sleep well at all last night. it finally hit me the significance of the next two weeks and how little preperation i have done and how i may well completely fuck things up, the pressure is too much. and to make things worse i don't really care if i don't do well, i'm not sure i care about getting a degree. this is all not good.

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am up at uni still doing work. working late today cos i really need to get my last essay done cos i only have a week left till the start of term and exams and i haven't done any revision cos i messed up. i'm really hungry!! i am working with my friend emily though so its not too bad. if you wanna email me feel free. am fed up.

feel shit. got up late when i should have been doing essay and feel crap cos my closest and only true friend doesn't want to know how i feel and stuff, doesn't want me talking to her any more. its like she doesn't want to really know me, its like she doesn't care about me. she says its cos shes going through stuff and can't cope with it any more ( Read more... )

so my first entry. got up quite early for me considering i went out the night before, didn't feel to great though i never do, legs really hurt from last night. didn't have breakfast again, didn't have lunch again. didn't feel to good in general really, feeling sad about my close friend emily, she doesn't seem to care as much as she used to about me ( Read more... )