OK so right now i'm trying to slightly plan new years.   as of now:
- Working 1 - 5ish
- Josh, steve and issa are sleeping here for sure,     POSSIBLY neil, sean and glenn may, long stories
- I have a way home!  Josh is gonna piggy back ride me home for a quarter cause i cant walk when i drink enough
- Probably getting a bottle of Fireball and a 12 ( Read more... )

NO more negative thinking,     today is a new day.    I'm gonna try to start it now,    but it is my new years resolution to try and see the best in every situtation and not let past events influence my choices in things.   NO regrets.  No more holding back because of fear or because i dont think i'm good enough.  THIS is my day, no one else's.  i' ( Read more... )

i find it funny how one night of my mom and her cousin drunk can change the way i viewed my like since i was 6.  espeically concerning my dad.         like i knew that time he blamed me... and that he was pissed and the cops were called and we didnt see him for like 2 months cuz my mom put him on a restraining order...     but i didnt know that the ( Read more... )

Whats up everyone's asses?!?   like FUCK the good mood i was in....    first off i got bitched at all day for not sitting around downstairs.... although i was cleaning and sorting my room so i could put up my net...    WHICH might i add i've been told to clean my room for a long while.  second, i walk downstairs and they're talking about me and my ( Read more... )

Do u know what's worse then normal church?  HUNGARIAN CHURCH.   u know whats worse then Hungarian church?  walking in late and having to stand the whole time at the back.   like holy shit,  y do i get dragged there every so often?   i dont understand a single word except amen, nem (no), eegan (yes),  and like thank u but i'm not even gonna try to ( Read more... )

And,  a nice big christmas  FUCK YOU Goes out to Student Council!  thank u for screwing my friday and making me go to school to be a loner while all my friends are either skipping, at home sleeping , or at the mall shopping!   anddd seeing as tomorrow my school as a all school lunch at the same time, for the FIRST time in my 3 years at carter,  i ( Read more... )

I'll make this sort and sweet because all my entries have been Quite long lately and i dont wanna annoy the fuck outta people who read them :
-> PISSY week that i want to end right now but i have to go to every class every day..
->  i wanna get threw christmas in one piece... its just not the same without the routen like every year   
-> Work is ( Read more... )

Wow...  i rarely dream about people i know unless i've known them for YEARS.  Really weird/fun dream this morning when i fell back to sleep.

It kinda scares me but then again it was sooo nice at the same time!  the first part made me really smile...  haha i bet u any money i was smiling in my sleep  (kinda creepy but whatever) plus it was my first ( Read more... )

Hey World

Friday - sat at home
Saturday - sat at home until i annoyed my mom enough to let me out of the fucking house.    i got FREE and then we fit 7 people in the smallest car ever and hot boxed it good.  i love my friends.... and then fact that me refusing to drink til new years makes them try to trick me into it.  Tristian hit on me, and ( Read more... )

Do u know what i just realized?   i'm gonna be the biggest wreck u've ever seen in your life this christmas eve and possibly the days before and after...

The only thing i wanted for christmas was a sewing machine which i was gonna ask everyone to pitch for rather than getting any smaller things.... that way it would be equal.  but my aunts just ( Read more... )