got lured over to facebook and then got lazy and stayed. the only problem is they all know me there. here i can post fucked up things about how i feel or think and it's fine. just a little venting. FB is waaaay too familiar. it's like the worst high school you could be forced to attend. fucked up night but things always turn around. fweh...i need a ( Read more... )

ache. right now i just ache. i learned a long time ago not to look for what you don't want to find. but what if something that was trying to hide from you shows up when they thought you'd be out? how do i ignore that? like a cockroach skittering across the floor, discovered by a flick of the lightswitch. do i step on it, or watch to see where it ( Read more... )

my little cat tsuki has died. my little black pearl is now lost at sea. i am miserable and heartbroken. people say "but she lived such a good long life! 16 years! was so loved!" all true...but none of it makes me miss her less. i love you tsuki!

there is a giant heron that stalks the fields across from the employee parking lot. his name is Edgar. we're pretty good friends.

i got a new phone. it's a "smartphone". it's fucking awesome. i can't figure it out. it's kicking my dumbass. i love it. i love it because my family is scared of/too dumb to figure out new technology. it took my brother 6 years to understand how to retrieve his voice messages (he only has a cellphone because his job makes him carry it) and his ( Read more... )

SKIING on the STREETS of PORTLAND ( Read more... )

i was watching tv today and the opening scene of "the shining" came on ( Read more... )

i have soooo much to post, but waaaay too busy. let me just say this: PORTLAND IS AWESOME. there is no way i could be happier. i got new gutters put on the house and i almost pee'd with glee. that's fucking joy right there people.

turns out my hot boyfriend jemaine clement recently "married" his "longterm girlfriend"!! the hell?? what kind of guy makes you fall hopelessly in love with him and then marries some bitch behind your back?! good thing i have my hot husband to fall back on or else i'd be fucked. ...damn!!

i want to tell you about my brother's friend Mike. i met him the other day. a strange yet extremely familiar day. mike lives in a house that should not only be condemned but demolished. he pays $300 a month in rent which is easily $250 too much. when you are inside, you feel like you are outside, everything coated in a fine yet seemingly ( Read more... )