this update is for the one and only brenda

thebrenda   <3

its not gonna be much of an update but its something.

nine months of butterflies and nervous laughter..one nite of pure magic..now, nothing.

where does that sound familiar..?...oh, right, story of my life.

i updated my site. pictures of my works xmas party are up. the party sucked ass, but the nite ( Read more... )

i havent updated this thing in forever so i figured it was time. sadly, i dont have much to say ( Read more... )

so tomorrow im gonna be 20. scary. i think. i dont even know.

all i know is i need to thank a few people for actually showing up saturday nite. i invited a bunch of people but only a few showed up. but i wasnt upset, as i usually would be. coz i know the people who showed up are my friends. like real friends. which i cant say for most of the people ( Read more... )

dreams. hope. friends. desire. boyfriends. fun. love.
the feeling that everything will always be ok coz i have a huge group of supportive and loving friends.
some of the things i used to have.
i feel empty.

my mind has gone blank.

1. Go into your LJ's archives.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.

Thursday, July 12th, 2001 : ..and so i liked him, i let myself cuz i thought it would be fun..

and got hurt, like always. heh. oh well, live and learn.

well shit.
driving with the windows down and smelling a familiar smell and i lost it.
where do you start when you dont know where you went wrong.
im missing alot of things right now. and a few people.

had fun with josh and mark tonite. thanks guys.

-xo-

i want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. ask me anything you want. then i want you to copy and paste this in your journal, allowing your friends to ask you anything ( Read more... )

figured i should update this thing so it doesnt get deleted ( Read more... )

lets so. its been a while. and my life has basically been work work work. with alittle beer on the side ( Read more... )