This is great. I'm sick as a dog and I can't go to sleep because there are so many damn things running through my mind right now. Not only that, but no matter how much I cry I don't feel like I've cried enough to feel any kind of relief. What the hell is all this? Have I been bottling up my emotions for so long? I'm so confused right now. So many ( Read more... )

Not Okay
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Lying in bed touching my skin...]
How I wish you weren't sleeping.
If only you opened your eyes
You'd see the thirst on my lips...I'm dying.

Free me from this torture that makes me ill.
Save me from this hell, let's go far away!
Turn around and look at me!
Please ask me "Are you okay?"

No, I am not okay!

I am not okay with me.
I am not okay ( Read more... )

No puedo
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No puedo dormir pensando en mi futuro.
Me aterroriza el pensar en lo que me espera.
Tengo miedo de estrellarme contra un muro.
No quiero pensar en el día que me muera.

Es tan difícil saber que algún día todo esto será pasado.
Pero al igual que el viento, todo ha de cambiar.
Me calma el saber que el pasado no se perderá del todo.
Pero no ( Read more... )

Someone please come and save from this forsaken place.

I miss my friends.
I miss my housemates.
I miss being on campus.
I miss having money.
I miss feeling like I belong.

I came out to my mother last Friday and it seems like home is no more...not for me.

I'll elaborate later...

*sighs*

I turned 21 yesterday. I feel old! ;__; Do you guys have any idea how much that is in gay years?! XD

Anyway. It rocked! Ivy took me to San Marino's (AWESOME italian restaurant) for dinner. When I got there they had planned to have my closest friends there! I was like "How did you get here?!". Of course, me being my clueless blonde self, didn't ( Read more... )

Friday at last! *does a happy dance* I got paid today. have only 30 more minutes until I'm free from work and I think I'm getting my physics grade from Tuesday's exam (which I SO know I rocked)! Yay! This has been one fun week and I sooooooo needed it. n.n ( Read more... )

I forgot that today was my mom's birthday ( Read more... )

Long time no post, eh?

Just when i was getting back into posting a lot school comes up and ruins everything. =\ I have been busy as hell. Busy enough not to be able to see Benjamin in a week. :( I miss him, dammit. >_< It's bad when you don't even have time to have lunch with your friends . If it wasn't for the fact that Marycarmen and I take ( Read more... )

Today I embarked on a new journey. My fourth year of college studies. As the years have passed I have been less excited and more indifferent towards the first day of class of the new school year. This year was no exception. I can summarize it in one word: blah. My first class was Calculus !!! and it was so hot my pores were screaming for mercy. ( Read more... )