That look on your face is why I didn't do what I said I was going to ( Read more... )

Right, that's bullshit. I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. I just told the woman I have loved for years, to basically fuck off. I have caused irreparable harm to our relationship again, maybe even worse than before, probably the worst I could. I think I've gone a little crazy. Maybe I've hit a tipping point, or maybe I've just convinced ( Read more... )

I had to put judy on the spot you see, but I got the feeling she wanted me to. I am just one of the best romantics around. I think it is because of all of the fantasy romantic novels I've read. Anyway, I didn't even plan it, that is half of what makes it so romantic. Okay so first we left my high school after the play and drove around a little ( Read more... )

I just had a 3 hour conversation with my best friend. Who also happens to be my room mate, my closest confidant, my ex-girlfriend, my ex-fiance, and finally the love of my life ( Read more... )

I had a thought. Just a random thought. I hope I meet someone this year. Someone who actually likes spending time with me. I hope it snows. Like REALLY snows, to the point where you can't get out the front door ( Read more... )

I'm in upstate New York for the weekend for some reason. There is this girl same age as me, little bit shorter than myself, pretty, cute, but not gorgeous. Soft hands, but not weak. A smile that would brighten your last day. Laughs alot, but not too much. A little bit on the shy side, but opens up easily. And a dozen or two other traits that ( Read more... )

So once again, I'm up much later than I should be. It's a week night, and I actually have to get up in a few hours to do this thing called work. But the reason I'm up has many facets. Mainly ... I was watching a movie. I was watching the movie "16 Blocks". The most interesting thing about this is the central theme of the movie is how people ( Read more... )

Does anyone really know what it's like to have what you want right next door but infinitely out of reach? I do. I have for years. I have been longing for this for a long time. So long in fact I almost forgot. But every time I'm alone. Every time I'm left with just my own thoughts. No distractions, no one else but myself. The dull ache, a ( Read more... )

So for the hell of it I thought I'd put a new post up here. Because apparently people still read this stuff ( Read more... )

Why? You want me to give up? Me giving up will make you stop seeing me as pathetic? Giving up hope is a desirable trait now? You despise someone who's holding onto something they believe in? You think it's right to just try and ignore these feelings? That someone should not fight for what they want? Patience is not a virtue anymore ( Read more... )