Coming up on 5 wonderful months. It's been amazing, everything I had dared hoped for and more. Alot of the time it doesn't even feel real. I don't think I've been this happy ever ( Read more... )

I wish I could back date this a little, 28 days to be exact. That's when it all happened and my life changed, not dramatically but in a significant measurable way ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure I have been a nuisance to everyone around me. And I don't care, I'm happy, it's been noticed, it's palpable. I can't shut up about it ( Read more... )

It's been a little while. I kind of told myself I'd update this more. Maybe because one day when I come back and read all of this I can see the transitions. As if there's transitions ( Read more... )

It's been a little while. Maybe I should make note of a few things. Speaking of things, not so awkward anymore. That's good, not really. Drifted back to the same state of equilibrium. Perpetual nothing. Perpetually lonely. I repeat things alot here. I've noticed that. So what, I guess it's my style. It's a way of underlining just how wistful I feel ( Read more... )

Twice in one year! There's got to be something wrong! Alas there is, but then again there has been for a long time now ( Read more... )

It's been 3 years since the last. Alot has change but as usual, nothing has. I still have the same thoughts swirling around in my head. I successfully suppress it for a time, but it always comes back. Something happens, something is said, a memory surfaces, a dream, something ( Read more... )

I don't do this often anymore. I haven't for years. This all seems to remain inside my own head anymore. Mostly because I don't feel the need to share anymore. The sharing used to be cathartic, but it hasn't been in a long time. I also fear that I will always end up reiterating the same thoughts over and over, but maybe that is evidence of what is ( Read more... )

Most everyone knows that I have a hearing disability. Well "disability" depends on how you look at it. I can't lie that there are certain circumstances where it is an advantage. I think every disability has that even if it is not immediately obvious. But aside from those it's a loss. A loss of experiences that I will probably never have. ( Read more... )

Alot has happened since the last time I wrote here. Partially because I lost access to this account, and partially because I haven't really been motivated to express myself in any meaningful way. Of course one could argue how meaningful such personal writing possibly is, but I know for a fact that THIS is being read by someone who matters. ( Read more... )