My house is a mess. Lou's dad maybe flying in tonight. There is no where for him to sleep. I feel like I'm floating. I'm very depressed. I was supose to have a party tonight but no one got back to me on weather they where coming, so I figured I had no friends and they where all busy, so I cancled it. Only told myself because I was the only one who ( Read more... )

I don't really update anymore. I'm tired of not having an outlet. I'll write big stupid shit that doesn't matter here. Facts n stuff :) Cause I know some of you love me and wanna keep tabs. Anyways...

I'm switching to a new journal. Message me for the link and I might ;) just give it to you.

peace

So I'm giving up. I can't fight alone. I wish I could, but alas I can't. I've tried for so long. So I'm giving up. Giving into what is easier. It can't be to evil, I've put up with it this long haven't I? So yups. Thats it. That's all she wrote. I am going to accept the fact of what everything is. Just got with the flow. Can't paddle upstream ( Read more... )

my soul is awaking... I need change. Desperatly. I want change. Someone change with me? I need people. People I already know to make me strong. People always say i'm strong but I'm not. I'm always strong when I have others, never by myself. And this i think makes me weak.Very weak. I've been ditched spit on ditched ashes thrown in my face kicked ( Read more... )

holy shit its been a long time since i've written. Anways, I'm moved in with lou. yay! our apartment is coming along pretty kickasstic.. oh ya I like that word...lol. I'm at work now. Bored out of my mind. And freezing. I'm day dreaming about being outside so I'm warmer. Oh ( Read more... )

I'm bored. Chillin with Rylee. I guess now I'm on the market officially, so if anyone knows any cute single guys send em my way :P I'm pretty much just chill I guess. Spending a lot of time with rye. yay funess! Got drunk off my ass. Was happy to be drunk because itwas a lot of fun stayed up all night with rye and josh we had fun. I'm lookin foward ( Read more... )

I cant seem to motivate myself. There is 2 weeks left of school. Count em 4 days. 2 of them are finals :( But I have all these projects to do and I just well cant get myself started. I dont know what it is. I just wanna go frolick outside and play. I might have screwed up my psych grade. I was aiming for all A's and was so close if it wasnt for ( Read more... )

This weekend was actually VERY cool... Hung out with the Rylee and the Jews... DUDE rye guy we should start a band called Rylee Lisa and the Jews! lol... Good times... Um I mostly just hung out with rye the jews and Jermiah. Can we consider J one of the jews? I mean he has been with them all weekend. lol... K I S S I N G. Good oki I'm goin to stop ( Read more... )

UGH i hate people and when they preach openmindness and then they are fuckin closed minded as hell adndjfskljfkldsjfklsdajfkl I am SOOO FUCKIN PISSED RIGHT NOW and i have no one to talk to. UGH fuck him and the horse he rode in on. He is fuckin over my plans and my life leading shit on. Just like fuckin person he talks trash about. FUCK i am pissed ( Read more... )

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