sometimes things get too steady too regular...and you need something to shake things up...a new hair cut, new clothes, new somethings i don't know...but i am just tired of everything...and well now i just feel the need to move on...i tried the new hair cut, i'm trying to get a job...not horribly hard but i have put a decent amount of applications ( Read more... )

i guess i just have to write this for myself...jeffy died two days ago and it is so fucking weird...i mean i can't imagine what is going through peoples heads that were close to him...i am sad for my friends because they knew him better...but i almost feel that he is lucky to get out of this...he died in his prime but now he will never have to ( Read more... )

My baby boy, the one thing that was there for me through all the bad died. i miss him so much. i haven't seen him in more then a year because he had to move with my mom and step dad down to kentucky. i was so lucky to have him in my life. i remember picking him out of a litter of pups because he had a white stripe on his chest and falling in love ( Read more... )

in other news, i've got so many secrets to tell...
i'm thinking florida...hanging out in a bathing suit all day, laying on the beach, mya on a little leash...something fruity to drink...it could never work.
my moms home for a little bit...it will always be weird to be around her...
lots of things on my mind

i am not sick...and i got to experience anesthesia for the first time...its a trip...but i am so happy all this going to the doctors stuff is finally over and that i won't have to go back for a long time...and that drinking stuff that makes me throw up is done...i'm just plain happy...and i can eat again...which i am planning to do much of this day ( Read more... )

well the weeks proceeding this new year were not what you would call great...but the last year on a whole i would say was pretty good...and the milestone night of december 31 was fun...i had great laughs, but i just couldn't help thinking about another year gone...what did i accomplish...another year older...how long can this last...the night was ( Read more... )

and now i lost my phone...hopefully i find it but the past couple of days haven't been exactly stellar...and this night of christmas eve i get to spend with a family who i love but most of the time i find them over bearing...i just want to sit with friends and not answer stupid questions...i think that i will duck out early, i think i deserve it...

you get to take your beloved cat to the vet because she has an eye infection...and later on in the day you get to have a flat tire in the freezing cold...i mean what would i do without all these good things happening to me...i sat for two hours today waiting for a new tire...lets see what else can happen just before christmas...

the results of our tests are inconclusive, so we will be needing to see you again january 3 ( Read more... )

so cold so awfully cold...and fed up and tired and just frustrated with feeling, and being and everything with life...i'm dissapointed with friends, no one is who i thought they were...i'm tired of family and childeren trying to be grown up...i don't want to be jealous anymore...i just want it all to end and i am too scared to just come out and do ( Read more... )