There is but one justice in this world, that all must face the consequences of their actions.

I discovered only recently that the faith I had so maligned was always with me. That my choices, rather than each being a brilliant move towards rationality in themselves, were the product of memory. There have been, for me at least, but a few moments when I saw the path I was traveling, saw the world out of context; or rarer still, saw myself ( Read more... )

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The truth is... that I'm not sure. Not as sure as I pretend to be about wanting to study economics. Not sure that I was right to try to change the path of my life. Not sure that I will succeed in this coming semester of college, as I have failed in so many before. Not sure that the people that I think are my friends really matter to me, or that ( Read more... )

In vast plains ( Read more... )

Titles are so much easier than content, at least for me. I can locate unifying themes, or central issues, but to type for some short while and have that somehow equivalent to a year of life seems a task for a madman. I have learned more in the last year more than I ever knew could be learned, there is more that I have lived than I imagined in my ( Read more... )

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Perhaps now I have lived a little, experienced a bit, learned a thing or two, though it is not as important as I thought it would be. What I had spent so long avoiding and denouncing, seemed to be nothing special, just another misbegotten adventure. To drink or not to drink, what once required my constant vigilance is now so little to me, and I ( Read more... )

Apparently the deal I made with the devil, is finally paying off.

Elliot invited me to a party.

And I thought I got such a raw deal.

That's pretty easy reasoning to follow, and just about the sum of my knowledge about the world right now. What a topsy-turvy time, I feel like calm waves, or a tsunami. Updating just to update, just so I can look back some day and be quite sure that I survived this date. My imaginary life continues, and who in the world can ever understand how ( Read more... )