i think if you stop asking why, everything gets a little easier. but at the same time, you feel a little dumber ( Read more... )

this is mostly for dacy because she keeps bitching at me to write an entry.

i'm in the living room. ALONE. so wake the fuck up you hoe.

there. now i may have company, and you have an entry to read.

i hope you're fucking satisfied. asian. :-)

i realize that writing anything of meaning in this is contradictory to what i'm trying to do. but i can't just keep holding it in. but then again, suffering because i kept something from you is better than regreting ever saying anything. and since i regret saying so many things, i don't plan on making that mistake again. i just keep trying to ( Read more... )

a fix for something intangible.

is something there if you can't physically reveal it?

...as a dull ache slowly rises from the ground filling my chest with its venom.

i genuinely miss him. not the him you're thinking of. there were annoying moments, but you may have really loved me. and i just threw that away. didn't even think twice. no time for regret though...hopefully i'll see you on the street and try again. cross your fingers.

i used to know where the line was. where something i thought was funny wasn't anymore. can someone try to understand how horrible it is to have to weigh out every action you're taking and still, no matter what the decision is, never know if it was the right thing to do? Nothing feels complete. I can't stop crying. every time i leave the room ( Read more... )

i didn't sleep a wink last night. tossing. turning. no matter what, i can't do that again. I really am trying to be different, to be better.

I am so thankful. thank you. thank you. thank you.

i am so exhausted. please never again? i'll try my hardest.

I promise.

do you feel it in the air?

it's intangible, but oh boy it's there.

the same thing over and over and over again
.......until it all stops.......
with a deafening silence.

i don't feel like running anymore.

i can see the light again.

I Will Follow You Into The Dark ( Read more... )

Dacy. I. Fucking. Love. You.