oh gosh. wednesday night was fun, we took kathleen to OTT to celebrate. Kori was supposed to be sober in order to take us home, but when we got there, she was blacked out. I don't mean blacked out like splotchy blacked out, i mean like done for the night blacked out. Either way, we made K take about 8 shooters in 20 minutes. she didn't even ( Read more... )

i'm not stupid. i can tell what people are thinking about me just from the look in their eyes. if you keep ignoring me like this you won't have me anymore...if you want to go back to being third string in their eyes, then go back to it. I don't need to be trampled on the way. i've got fair-weather friends up to my ears, i don't need anymore... ( Read more... )

i'm sick of people being able to write how they feel, how they want to change things. show us.

doubt is a fun thing. i don't know where it comes from, or why it's there...but it seems to be everywhere...rearing its ugly head. nothing's true, nothing's false, nothing is anything whole exactly. there are partial truths and partial lies, but there are no wholes. no one tells the full truth, and no one tells the full lie. even in lies, ( Read more... )

if you felt bad about anything, then she would know that and she wouldn't write that dumb shit on your myspace wall...and you wouldn't respond to it. it seems like every time i go out of my way to do something completely selfless, it comes back to bite me in the ass...and usually way worse than what I deserve. If you want out of this house, then ( Read more... )

i always start to write in this, but then it gets too depressing and i don't feel like i need to throw that on anyone, especially everyone in the free world (or the 99% of it that have internet access). life has a way of surprising you, even if you have all your guards up...something always breaks through, something always gets to you...no one can ( Read more... )

you know when you look around and you just feel like some big change is about to happen to all the dynamics between people. And i have this ugly feeling that I'm gonna be standing alone in all of this. Maybe it's just the feeling you get when you yourself is instituting a change and getting used to it. I don't know. Things around me are ( Read more... )

then something like that happens and all the progress in your head that you've made disappears, a fog of memories. i have so much on my mind that i can't even begin to process any of it. the other night was horrible, yes, but it was just the icing on this cake. my whole life is just one big bust waiting to happen. i'm tired. i'm just so ( Read more... )

Whenever I think about the future, I imagine myself completely detached from everyone in my world right now. I imagine me alone in europe, standing on a bridge overlooking water, and I don't have that heavy feeling resting on my chest. I'm finally breathing at a normal rate, light and easy. I so need to actually be alone. To escape for a long ( Read more... )

vegas.

fucking best time i have ever had in my entire life.

you broads are the most awesome i know. i can't wait for round two.

there aren't words, honestly. nothing seems to get the point across.

we're gonna live there for a summer and bartend.

i fucking mean it.

las vegas is the shiiiiiiittttt.

foreal.